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December 31, 2023

I am once again redrafting my frame of mind. To start with an uncomplicated question: Will I wake up to darkness once more, or has the day already begun? Am I concluding an end, or am I starting a new beginning? I’ve learned a lot this year. I had the best of my time, and I can confirm for certain that I got to experience what being a teen is like. I have gained cognition over patterns - very handy and applicable to almost any scenario. I won’t need breadcrumbs to find my way back when I’m careful and calculated. I made my mind my second home. You can go pretty far once you've learned how to ride a bike. I tried out a different approach. The hypothesis is: If I learn the basics of something, then I can figure out any tasks of complexities. Even though I’m pretty scared of what next year has in store for me, I’ll start with what I can, making use with what I have, master it, and slowly work my way up. I woke up and packed my things. The packing process shouldn’t have taken long, but I was looking for this piece of clothing that I knew was with my brother. I asked him about its whereabouts, and he was clueless. I sorted that thing out, then wore those plaid flannel pajamas literally everyone’s wearing. It's for the planned family picture. We went to the penthouse and stayed there for a while. It was cold, so I found myself freezing (to death) while staring into nothingness. I ate a lot. I cooked carbonara too. Except my brother called me off for playing with my food. I carved the pasta in the pan into a star while I was mixing it around. I slept but the new year seems to be taking its sweet time. To pass the time, I played a racing game with my baby brother, using his two remote control cars. I was winning every round. I find it interesting that he didn’t cry. He usually cries when he loses. Not long before midnight, I began hearing fireworks, which increased in number as the time approached the new day(year). With only a few minutes remaining, we went out onto the balcony, and the countdown began.

December 30, 2023

I'm going out on another date with Wacky! I woke up really early and had a lot of time to mentally prepare myself. I even had my breakfast while watching Initial D, then cleaned up and went through my whole routine. Wacky eventually arrived at my driveway, and he picked me up with his dad and brother in the car. So far, they're pretty cool. Such a relief that they don't hate me. They had a few morning errands to attend to, so we tagged along. After that, we went to this coffee shop, and I just had hot chocolate. I spilled a bit of it because that's just my luck. But then he laughed at me, and I swear he was the prettiest I've ever seen. I say that every time I see him, so don't take my word for it. I bet he'll be even prettier the next time we see each other. We walked around the city... I think. We tried our best to avoid the topic of how this was probably the second to last time I'm seeing him. We were enjoying each other's company a lot. It was early, but everything felt so quick with him. We tried looking for this new thing at the mall but eventually gave up. We went to another mall near where the Disney on Ice event is located. We decided to spend our time there while waiting. We did a bunch of dumb things. I'm always the happiest when I'm with him. I'm not going to get into detail because it's better to remember how it feels to be with him than trying to put it into words. I'm not trying to downplay or butcher how much I love being with him. We had lunch at Shake Shack, and he was being weird, in a good and mutual way. He also got us tickets for the Ferris wheel. It was fun... I did try looking at the bookstore again just to find nothing. He called it. I'm still in that book slump, which sucks. We walked everywhere. At one point, we both got tired and just sat down at the rooftop deck of the mall. When it was finally dark out, we headed to the arena for Disney on Ice! He went through such lengths to get tickets. I'm so impressed. I came across one of my friends there. I actually encountered a handful of friends, which is such a weird coincidence. Back to the show, it was so great. I'd consider myself a Disney kid. I'm glad I got to watch that with him. I was trying my best to keep my eyes off of him. If only he knew how perfectly the lights complimented him. Fast forward, we met with his sister at Ikea, and I was so nervous. He was making fun of the way I stood with both of my feet on the ground. Who wouldn't be tensed up when meeting your boyfriend's family? His mom picked us up and dropped me home. He slept on my lap during the whole car ride. I couldn't sleep because I wanted this moment to last a little longer. It was a very long day. I wish I could write about it more, but it's impossible to articulate feelings when they're too great for me to even comprehend.

December 29, 2023

I have enough time for resting. This is a privilege I do not often get. I’ve been bestowed great power by the gods. I am a god. I was texting Sirko the whole day. She unpacked her family’s lore for 4 hours, and it was definitely hall of lore-worthy. I watched Initial D during the other gaps of the day. I didn’t really do much.
I’m so nervous for tomorrow. I’ll be meeting Wacky’s entire family for his parents' anniversary lunch. I had forgotten how bad my social anxiety was. If you've read my early blog entries, it was very evident that I struggled in social settings. Back then, I used to cry at my old age whenever a staff member would do as much as approach me. Like even seeing anyone within a 5-meter radius would make me cry. I am crying right now. For the rest of the night, I prepared mentally and physically. I picked out my outfit too (Sirko helped me out, so thanks).

December 28, 2023

I still get the same goosebumps I once felt when I first listened to Right Where You Left Me. I had to run a few errands today. I woke up early and headed to our local mall to update my bank account from the kids' one to an adult account, now that I’m 18, and renew my credit card. I caused a bit of commotion at the bank for being 18 and not looking the part. Other customers were throwing questions at me and everything. They were all very doubtful of my age. After that, I went to another shop to look for some glasses because I broke my old ones months ago. Then we grabbed Popeyes for lunch. I checked the bookstore for a specific book I needed, but it wasn’t on the shelves, so we went to another mall. My baby brother came along, and I had to keep an eye on him for a while. He played in the arcade, and I just followed him around while playing a couple of games with him. A few moments later, we had our family dinner. I also finally found glasses that fit me. At first, I didn’t like them, but they grew on me. They didn't have black frames, and I know I swore to only wear black ones, but they didn't have any available in the style I wanted, so I settled on the next best thing, the brown ones. I ended up not being able to get the book I came here for. We went home afterward. My baby brother is convinced he's the only one who can carry Mjolnir. He's been asking around the house if we (mere mortals) could lift his Thor's hammer, but we all pretend we can't. It's so cute. I laid down and rested for a bit, then slept, and then went to my room, cleaned up, and did my night routine. I planned on doing my blog, but I failed to notice the time. It's already 3 AM. I’m sleeping late again. I just want to sleep early.

December 27, 2023

Today, I woke up and decided to work on my blog entries. I tried to do 12 entries for today, but that was very unsuccessful. I had this list of things I wanted to do, which I relatively completed. I didn’t plan on going out, but my brother has been reminding me of my sins. I lost his guitar capo a while back, and I owed him one. We went out to the mall, and instead of going to the music shop right away, we stopped by a couple of other shops. We started off with the game shop. He got yet another game for his PS5. His argument was that since he had Christmas money, he basically had free money to spend. I wanted to buy things too, but in every shop I visited, I couldn’t find anything I liked. We did eventually get what we came here for. My mom and dad picked us up, and then we went out for dinner. I got buffalo wings, which were too much for me. It was good though. My brother has this new ongoing joke of me being his personal bodyguard. Then we went home and worked on more blogs. I was a bit distracted. I wanted to sleep early today, but I physically couldn’t because, it turns out, I have developed this weird dependency on Wacky being on the other side of my phone so I could go to sleep. I am so scared. I don’t usually dream, but I’ve been having nightmares ever since we stopped having our sleep calls. I’m going to try fixing this dependency problem I have. I just need to give myself a bit more exposure therap

December 26, 2023

I could render a gradually declining perspective with a few adjustments. Some things aren’t that complicated. There’s always a substance occupying something. The glass is never half empty. Am I stupid for not knowing, or am I smart for acknowledging that I don’t know? What exactly am I trying to prove? Literally nothing. It's just in my current train of thoughts. I’m usually zoned out when I’m with family members. I looked forward to Christmas, but I didn’t actually celebrate it. I just like the concept of it. The whole day, my brother was stepping on my God complex. It’s part of our comedic bit. It’s not actually meant to be funny, but if we were in a sitcom, I know it would be. Today we bantered over how I was both an unstoppable force and a movable object. It’s a Joker reference we’ve been quoting for years now. But today, it was our punchline. Around midnight, my brother and I had a redemption. Okay, I need to inform you that this is a very historical moment. Back when my brother and I were still children, we used to eat those dry noodles from a cup of ramen whenever we’d get hungry at night. It was our only option for survival. Fast forward to middle school, we made a very dangerous concoction from attempting to cook those pre-made noodles (not the instant noodles kind). My brother used “science” and boiled water that wasn’t hot enough but also left the noodles soaked for a bit too long. I mean, it should’ve worked hypothetically. But we were very far off from the directions. I mean for one, we actually needed to cook it, but we were too dumb for that (we were both top of our class). After we took the noodles out, we noticed that they were very inflated. We then proceeded to add in the other flavor and ingredient packets it came with. Because we weren’t thinking, we split the noodle first then cut all the packets in half to split it evenly too. I spilled my half of it. So my know-it-all brain resorted to using what I thought were alternatives from our kitchen cupboards. They were not. Long story short, I ended up vomiting everything I ate. My brother and I are now considered adults. We made the same thing today. But he actually cooked it this time. He even added butter because it was a trick that would make the noodles taste better. I mixed everything on the same plate and distributed it evenly for the two of us too. It was so good. I ate more than I could fit in my stomach. My brother was telling me about the hamster I overfed when I was young. How he would be waiting for me on Judgement Day with his arms crossed. That hamster died pooping. It was all because of me and my obsession with getting him to do tricks.

December 25, 2023

Merry Christmas.
I normally start my blog entries from the moment I wake up. I know I made a declaration to only conclude that my day has ended after I go to sleep, but I feel like it would be more conventional for me to start at 12 midnight. I refused to open my gift until it was actually Christmas. When I did open it, I got like the best thing ever. It was something that symbolized girlhood, and I thought it was so timeless. It was the Vivienne music box monogram canvas. Definitely something very sentimental. One which I can keep beside my nightstand or vanity for years. It’s on the expensive side, and I am very grateful. I can keep it as an heirloom. I can wind it up, and I'll be reminded of the nostalgic times. I genuinely think it's the most perfect gift ever. I am very grateful. We were at our other house, and my brother and I were still playing that old Dragon Ball Z video game. I know, what a bunch of losers. I also got myself the Anakin skin in Fortnite. I think they brought it back for the holiday. This is not helping the loser allegations. I only ate peanut butter for dinner. We had food on the table, but I am stupid. I slept at like 5 AM.

December 24, 2023

Merry Christmas Eve.
I did my blog and just wanted a very quiet day. I wrote a lot. I've never had an actual relationship with my extended family, so during holidays like these, I'm usually alone (or with my brother). I helped my brother fix his closet. We separated them into trash clothing, normal, and the epic pile. We were originally looking for this missing hoodie of mine that had just resurfaced my mind. I eventually did find it, but at the expense of hours of segregating my brother's clothes (we weren't even a quarter done). We had some change of plans. I forgot that we usually spend Christmas with other family members. So yeah, the whole thing I mentioned about being alone, has to happen this year too. I'm not complaining. I somehow am still able feel the Christmas spirit. I mean, I didn't even do anything today. We had our family picture. We wore matching outfits as usual. I spent the day with Luna, our new French bulldog, and my baby brother. They were chasing each other, and I was just watching over. My baby brother had so many gifts. He's spoiled. I didn't get to eat any of the food on the table, so when I got home, I had like a peanut butter sandwich. I fell asleep, so I just didn't. I think Christmases are more about my family, and I like that it's a day for them to gather. Except it's not really as much since family problems are making the circle grow exponentially smaller each year.

December 23, 2023

I've come up with a new system to organize my plans and finally catch up on my blog. I’m making a Game Plan. Apple had this new update a couple of weeks ago that introduced this new journal app. I’ve been trying to find a use for it. I think it’s pretty well made. I remember back then, I used to always scout out the app store for the perfect journal app but could never find a good one. Now that there is a perfect one, I already have my online blog and no longer have a use for it. But now I do. The system would be to write out how I feel, especially when I have a bunch of lingering tasks that are weighing me down, list out the said tasks, then go into further detail. I’ve always been a big fan of figuring out my problems through worded out emotions. This way, I’d know how to solve each struggle individually. Then, what's fun about it is that I can compare the way I feel and actually do something to change a feeling I made tangible by writing it down. I finished Haikyuu yesterday so I no longer have any excuses for putting things aside. I did almost 15 entries today. That’s a lot of entries. I also ate a burger either my mom or dad made. That’s totally off-topic. Anyway, Wacky has convinced me to start knitting again. I kind of gave up when I made this mistake that I figured was unfixable. He got us tickets for Disney on Ice too. He went through a lot of lengths, and I appreciate it so much. He’s always been so sweet. He called me again this afternoon, and we talked while I was assembling my Sirko box. He asked me a bunch of dumb hypothetical questions, and I was happy. I’m literally such a girlfriend on the phone with his boyfriend. I also played another PS2 game. It was Dragon Ball Z: Budokai Tenkaichi. I’m not sure which edition, but it’s definitely still better than any of the new Naruto games (especially Bandai’s whole copy-paste games). It was a bit modded, so we had like new characters too. I obviously played all the overpowered Gods. I did Beerus first, a bunch of weird lizards (this is an inside joke) that my baby brother picked out, then Broly. I love Broly. I won with him too.

December 22, 2023

I am staring at an unfamiliar ceiling. I am not home. I woke up to return to our main house. While everyone was packing up, I watched a bit of Haikyuu. I got home, showered, and completed the rest of my morning routine. I needed to finish Sirko’s gift, so I had to buy her box today. I wrote a couple of blog entries before heading out to the mall. We ate out—fun fact, whenever I’m out with my family, I usually always order calamari. There was none available, so I got chicken instead. We were on the hunt for plaid pants and found a bunch. I also found this cute top for myself from the kid’s section. I like that whenever I go shopping, I have access to all the different sections. I got the boxes on the way home since that was literally my main reason for going out. When I got home, my baby brother and older brother were playing some instruments, so I joined in. I played Kilby Girl on the electric. I love that song. Then I did another pre-shower makeup, but it did not turn out well this time.

December 21, 2023

It’s 1 AM. I got out of bed pretty late. I’ve been lazing around a lot and I know I shouldn’t be excusing it, but I’m considering this whole Christmas break productive. Resting is productive. I need it. I’m finally working on my website again. Not exactly coming up with something new, more of doing my overdue maintenance. I updated my archives since it’s still a couple of months behind. I wanted to fix my entry drafts too, but I couldn’t gather my words. I figured stalking other blogs would do the trick, but I was interrupted. It was already nighttime when my baby brother decided he wanted to sleep in our other house. He’s a very spoiled child. He got what he wanted, so me and my older brother just packed our stuff for an overnight stay. By packing up, I meant just pajamas, my laptop, and my sketchpad. My brother brought his gaming laptop and controller so he could set up some video games. He told me he had a Ps2 emulator and wanted to try it out. We dug up our memory lane and listed a few games we used to play a lot. One was Tom and Jerry: War of the Whiskers, WWE, NBA, Crash Bandicoot, and obviously, GTA. Our other house is actually very near. My baby brother just wanted to go there because of some toys he had lined up on the floor. That, and we had this new secret door installed for his baths. He loves bubble baths. When we got there, my brother ordered food and I kind of just didn’t eat. I was about to regret this. Me and my older brother taught my baby brother the mechanics of the Tom And Jerry game I mentioned and he’s pretty addicted. He already has that gamer try-hard controller grip. Also did the Crash Bandicoot one. Most of my time there was just me texting Wacky and watching Haikyuu. It wasn’t exactly annoying, but I did not like the fact that I was getting called every 5 seconds. I got hungry midnight. I ordered more food and I didn’t know that the spice level for the chicken I ordered was pretty high. Well, it wasn’t that high but I didn’t know it was powdered on the skin and I just shoved it into my mouth not knowing it would burn my lips off. So that’s that. I ended up sleeping in the living room with my brother instead of my own room upstairs because I wasn’t used to the whole new air going on.

December 20, 2023

I’m glad that the weather hasn't gotten warmer. As much as I love bright days, I swear the rainy season boosts my productivity. I’m sure this will change over time, like how I acquired the taste of wine and other adult stuff. But as someone who collects hobbies, I have a lot of items sitting on my shelves and in corners of my room, gathering dust and waiting to be used. When's a better time to learn those hobbies than during rainy days? I’m currently trying my best to catch up on my blog entries, and although I’m extremely slow at doing that, I think it’s great for my memory retention that I can store daily memories as long as I can. I’m not sure if I’ve written about my 2 cents on memory, but if I haven't, hopefully, I can write something in-depth about it in the near future.
For now, I spent most of my morning (this wasn’t much since I woke up pretty late) watching Haikyuu. Then I wrote my blog - each entry took an hour long. I only did 3. Wacky called me too just so he could hear my voice and talk about random stuff. We talked about melody roads (since I was doing an entry from 2 months ago and that was my topic then too). I thought it was the cutest thing ever. I always pace around my room, giggle, and kick my feet whenever I talk to him. I swear I don't know how we can always pull out topics from thin air, but I’m glad we can, and I think it’s further proof on how we’re actually soulmates. He also suggested a couple of fixes for my blog problem.
Look, I am trying my best. I’m just a really busy person. Okay so he’s proposing that if I write at least 2 a day, one for today and one for the past, then I should be able to write all my blogs in real-time again. I love my sweet boy so much. My baby brother has claimed this other house we had, and they completely refurbished all the furniture into this green theme (my baby brother’s favorite color). We went there so he could play with his toys. I’m just tagging along for not much of a reason. My brain is extremely occupied with Haikyuu and cannot process anything else until I finish the series.

December 19, 2023

I slept a lot today, like I have been for the past couple of weeks. I woke up, slept, watched Haikyuu, and slept again. Obviously, I got up for my showers, which are part of the routine, but other than that, it was nothing new. I taught my brother how to write numbers properly, so I guess that amounts to something. I mean, how many people can say they helped someone today? Probably a lot, but that’s not the point. I tried going downstairs to our living room just to keep myself up, but that did not help at all. I watched Haikyuu, and before I knew it, I fell asleep again. Since that wasn’t working out, I just went back to my room and slept some more in my very comfy bed. I finally cleaned my makeup brushes just to complete at least one thing off my productive on-hold to-do list. Then around midnight, I did a piano cover of Cedar by Gracie Abrams. You can probably already guess why.

December 18, 2023

I have been invited over to Wacky’s house. I’ve never been to a guy’s room. I’ve never been introduced as a girlfriend to a parent. This is all uncharted territory. It’s so nice that he’s putting all the effort to pick me up. He lives an hour from me. I woke up really early knowing I was about to meet up with the most perfect person ever. I did my makeup. I met him at Starbucks and he was already there. We went to his car and the ride was like an hour more or less. We both fell asleep. We woke up nearing his house and I tried running away but couldn't. I met his cousin (such a cool person) then he introduced me to her grandma. They were all so sweet. Like actually nice to me. I went to his room. I've always loved his room from whenever I'd get snippets of it in his pictures. His drum set is so cool. I always have crushes on fictional men who's in a band with the drums as their position. His cards were also cool. His setup. Everything about him is so cool. His bed was cool too. His original proposed plan was that we'd take a quick nap first when we get there. A few hours later he got us food and took me to “the spot.” It was this abandoned house and I even asked how they found this place. It had an entire lore and everything. He drove me there and I was losing my mind because I had just discovered that he was the type to keep his eyes off the road just to look at me. His hands were also all over the place but we don't talk about that. I tried fighting him for the whole opening the door thing or going back seat because it's funny that I'm not a passenger princess or whatever. So back to the spot. I liked it there. We went down and to the back of the house that had this opening. The view was great. We went there pretty early but he did say that the cool part about the house was that I'd see a gazillion fireflies at night. Apparently it's his first time going there during day time too. We ate carbonara - a craving I have every single night that I literally always tell him about. He finished faster than me because he just always does. I left a few crumbs of the pasta on the floor because I'm a messy eater. We went up the house and sat on the floor. We went back because mosquitoes were biting him. His cousin and I agreed on giving him a makeover. My shirt somehow fit him and he wanted to show off. So that escalated to him getting Harley Quinn makeover with graphic liner and a clown makeup to top all that off. Then his cousin made him borrow one of her dresses. I think he enjoyed that a bit too much. Then we went back to his room again. Time skip. He went downstairs to get some snacks (as I watched Haikyuu) and he was doing all the eating while I played with his dog. She’s so nice. I think she loves me too. Wacky then decided he wanted to clout chase again in my Instagram dump so he did another episode of Wacksters or whatever he calls it. All my followers eat up his content. I can't blame them. He did this in the abandoned house too. Then Tony called, they're neighbors by the way, so there's that. He wanted to hang out which was totally cool. Wacky finished up and we went to the abandoned house again but this time with Tony Bokuto and Wacky’s cousin. They took me back because I had to write my name on the walls in some obscure code word which has my first initial. I chose Anakin and highlighted A (as per suggestion because everybody knows I’m literally Anakin). Tony, Wacky, and his cousin already had theirs but Bokuto still hasn't too so I suggested Volleyball, highlighting the Y. Then we went to one of their other spots. It was like this pop-up cafe and they bought soju and a few other stuff. Oh my god, he did the thing where he acted jealous before we entered the shop because there were other guys inside, then he kissed my forehead. Tony and the others did leave us for a bit because of how perfect we were as a couple (or maybe because we were being annoying), but they came back. They took us to one of the streets where the sun usually sets, and it's like another hangout spot for them. It was pretty, but I sadly had to go. I got my things from Wacky’s place, and his mom and sister were back home, so I met them too. I'm hoping I didn't leave a bad impression. Wacky came with me to drop me back home. He traced my face, and he told me I was pretty. We did get a bit depressing near the end because we both know we have this looming expiration date of when he has to move. We fell asleep facing each other, and then we inevitably separated ways.
When I got back, I rested for a bit, watched Haikyu, showered, then ate with my brother (usual midnight snacks while everybody’s sleeping) since he’s visiting for his Christmas break from college.
Okay, now for the time skip, which I will be encrypting for personal reasons:

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December 17, 2023

Fortnite. I’ve had that phase before. Back when it was still starting up. The skins were limited, it only had a single game mode. My brother told me about it and it’s way different now. I like it.
I want the Anakin skin so bad. I’m putting all my hopes on the 4th of May. I’m hoping it comes back. Fortnite has always been big, but I can see that by the way it’s expanding the game, it’s definitely gonna be of big value in the gaming industry. It’s like Roblox, but with better graphics and everything. I played all afternoon with my brother. We did some guitar hero-looking game, and Lego Fortnite. That’s what took up most of our time. It’s pretty awesome. It wasn't exactly as I had expected, but it was reasonable. I wanted something that allowed me to build block by block but, after some careful considerations, that kind of game would require so much rendering.
I had a pamper night. I took care of myself. It’s been a while. I started pretty late but, I wanted to waste off some time while waiting for Wacky to call me. I do that a lot. I feel like such a loser. My busy life is like down the pipes and now he’s all my days revolve around.

December 16, 2023

I rise to fall. I don’t mean that in a weird, deep, metaphorical, and philosophical way. I mean that in an “I’m waking up only to go back to my bed and sleep” way. This whole hibernation thing is a real thing. I know it’s getting repetitive, but what can I do? My body refuses to function. Also, my brother is back! I watched more Haikyuu and just played with my baby brother on the side. Other than that, I didn’t have much going on today.

December 15, 2023

I'm still hibernating. I woke up and helped with Sirko’s sister's package for her friend, then got ready for the day, only to go back to sleep again and watch more Haikyuu. I had about an hour and 30 minutes left before my article’s deadline, and I planned on procrastinating until the very end, but I guess it was in the way of my shower, and I just had to finish it. I completed writing the whole thing in more or less than 20 minutes. I always forget how good of a writer I am. I did my research too. It was the most confusing thing ever, like our panelists gave us a bunch of critiques that were all contradicting. That and they're all just plain wrong. If there’s something I’ll never be intimidated by, it’s something I actually researched on. I mean, arguing with adults has never been a big deal for me. Not in a disrespectful way; in fact, it’s actually quite respectful. If we’re talking about one topic, shouldn't it be a given that researchable facts shouldn't be something made up from thin air? I get it, confidence makes someone seem more credible. But that really won't work on me. Researching is a whole rabbit hole that I always fall for. I knew each time my panelist stated absolute nonsense just for the sake of saying something. I’m guilty of that too, but at least I look smart when I slip on those mistakes. As for my in-depth research, and I’m up for corrections, they told us that we needed a counterpart for purposive sampling method in terms of quantitative. See, while it’s rarely used in quantitative, it’s still used by some. After all, if it works then it does. Our panelist wasn’t exactly someone who studied research, but we have looked everywhere for the counterpart she talked about. It doesn't exist. The weird thing about it is when they asked us to change our conceptual framework from my original IPO, to this format they completely made up and doesn't have a name. It’s because they're apparently trying out new stuff. But they’re asking me to name something they completely made up which is dumb. Then they suggested I redo everything and change it back to IPO. I didn’t anyway. It was good as is. I followed everything. The problem here wasn't us, it was the internal conflict they have from changing up a bunch of formats for the research paper. I remember they strictly asked us to limit the SOP to 3 questions too. Then asked us to add another number on the actual defense. Isn’t that so fun? Just to add on their whole complaint with our conceptual framework too, our research teacher suggested the literal variable only for our panelists to ask us to change it into something more detailed with bullet points and everything. Do they have a hard time reading? We were literally asked to minimize it to 1-3 words per variable so we can put the details in actual paragraphs and make it more in-depth. I think it’s dumb for someone to complain over research papers not being visual enough. If I knew I would've added colors too or something. We decided to not follow that one panelist who had a lot to say. I swear people with more to say know less. They don’t even have research awards to be saying all that. They made up stuff, and I'd know because I actually did my research. I fell asleep early.

December 14, 2023

Last day of what seemed like endless suffering (school). We're also having our Christmas party. I did my makeup, picked out some last-minute outfit and was an hour late. That’s like half the entire program. I arrived and was pulled into some weird games they made up. We did the whole white elephant thing too. Since I’m a business student, all we did was basically just trade money. I won an award for being late so that’s cool. I took a bunch of pictures with friends, all that usual socializing tradition, then I got quite a handful of gifts which I appreciate a lot. I found Ria and she gave our friend group matching initial bracelets. She had this lore behind mine too. She accidentally stole like one of the bracelets she got, and she’s been emailing the bookstore she got it from. It’s actually funny. She’s the nicest girl ever, I swear. Anyway, she also had my 18th birthday gift. She gave it to me, and when I opened it, I was like in absolute awe. It was this Darth Vader plushie (now in my bed) that smells like this strawberry shortcake doll with scented hair toy I had before. My literal childhood. This is like the best gift ever. She went home with me (after I barely attended our party) because I was picking up my baby brother from school too. We waited in the car, and my baby brother was carrying like a bunch of gifts. Three of them specifically had some girl’s name on it. He’s never beating the gbf allegations from his field trip pictures. But it’s cute, I love it when he gets annoyed whenever I tease him. It’s a sibling thing. Ria is the second person to ever visit my room. I showed her a bunch of my useless stuff. I have a lot. Then finally, we went out for the original plan which was this karaoke date Ria had organized to celebrate my birthday. I told you, nicest girl ever. The car ride to our destination took quite some time so while we tried conversing, I couldn’t help but doze off. She did too. When we woke up, we both agreed that we had “good sleep”. We sleep a lot, so that means it was a really good sleep. Anyway, we were finally there. We had one last obstacle before the finish line. We had to cross the road. See, I wanted to take the easy route and just jaywalk, but Ria had to point out that we could get in jail for that (literally never happens) we were far from the pedestrian, but it’s literally the same thing. One thing about Ria though, she does not know how to cross the road. I swear, she was looking at the direction the cars were headed instead of where they were coming from. That’s very dangerous. I've been to this mall a lot of times, but never as a place to hang out with my friends. I like the new setting. The first thing we did was look for a restroom since I was literally holding my bladder. But we forgot about that and went straight to the karaoke spot me and Ria came for. Sadly, it was fully booked. She tried making reservations from their website, but I guess it didn’t really work out. They were literally uncontactable. We decided to just settle for the one in the arcade. It still had a pretty big room so it was good enough. The song selection wasn’t as good though. Before that, we looked for a place to eat and sat ourselves down. Oh, and I went to the restroom too. We had this set for like a lot of people. I swear like 5 people could share that whole meal. And we ate everything. We set our new record. 17 whole minutes for the biggest meal ever. Okay maybe I’m being a bit dramatic, but it was a lot (she paid for the meal too). After that, we patiently waited for our turn in the karaoke room thing and played this racing game that Ria won 5 out of 5 times… We sang a bunch of songs, it was fun. Ria bought herself a lash curler on the way home. I wanted to buy some skincare products, but the one I wanted was out of stock. We eventually parted ways, and I went straight home. Originally, I had planned to finish up the 2 remaining projects I had left when I got home. I was way too tired. I had a long day. Thank you, Ria. I appreciate the day you planned out.

December 13, 2023

I have a few errands on my list that I need to get over with. Will I be attempting to make progress on some of them? No. I ended up knitting while watching Haikyuu for the whole entire day. I swear I’ll get to them someday. I was about to shower for my night routine when the makeup on my vanity literally called for my attention. I've been wanting to try out this Christmas look I’ve had in mind. I’m a girl. My resolve was to put on some pre-shower makeup. I still haven’t picked out my outfit for the class Christmas party tomorrow, but I’ll do well enough... I think. I did a bunch of TikToks. I feel like I always need to remind everyone that I’m just a teenage girl.

December 12, 2023

I am up early. I have my finals. I only have one subject and one supplementary test (I am usually out of the country so I’m always missing tests). Both of which are for Literature which means they’re guaranteed perfect grades. I’m on top of my batch; everything is easy. That and I study a lot. Literature tests are usually all about memorization too. That’s my literal field. I arrived at school and took my Form B test first. I’m pretty confident I got a perfect score. I then transferred to the library, and Brie kindly joined. We were loud and got scolded again. This happens a lot. I love spending time with her. We chatted and studied for a bit. She’s a med student, so she had more tests. She sadly had to go early. I just sat there. I reviewed my material, and Skylar and his other friends decided to join me. I feel like 8th grade traumatized me. There was this girl who loathed everything about me just because guys liked being around me. Take note that I’m saying that it in a "I’m just a normal person who knows how to socialize" way. Up to this day, I continue to prove that I never approach anyone, whether girls or guys, and I've always been the one approached. I think I just have the charm for it, but who am I to say. I hate attention and I really only have one actual friend group that I’m willing to stick to and will regularly socialize with. I’m good. The bell rang, and it was finally time to take my last test for the year. The test went well. I’m suspecting like a maximum of 2 mistakes; it shouldn't be that bad. Hopefully. Wacky picked me up from school, and I tried sleeping in his car because I had 3 hours of sleep. He wasn't letting me. We watched Wonka. It was actually a good movie. It wasn't as realistic or as scientifically backed up as the last movie was, but I still enjoyed it. We watched it on IMAX, and we were like the only people in the cinema. Wacky wanted to buy soju for his cousin, so we went to the grocery store and looked for one. I wanted to test out my whole "I'm an adult" card, but I didn't get to. Then we ran into some problem with Wacky and his new phase… we fixed that…… it was like the riskiest thing we’ve both done ever. After that was dealt with, we ate at Pancake House. I wanted to go get coffee, but we ended up there. Wacky's fault, to be honest. He ate like 5 pieces of chicken. He ordered 3 and got 2 more. I had like a waffle and a 1 piece chicken that I couldn't even finish. Wacky had a pen, and we drew stuff on the mat. He made a portrait of me but just wrote something cringe. Then we drew like a house with a duck (him) giving flowers to a raccoon (me) who's mad because there's a bot duck outside the house denting the floor while Spiderman (our friend) is defeating him in a Going Merry ship with Luffy stretching all over the world holding the tip of the sail of our ship. Wow, that sounds like a fever dream. It was all fun and games until my mom texted me saying she was literally at the restaurant across. Ok, maybe not across. Like pretty adjacent I’d say. Scary, but I knew it was the perfect time to introduce Wacky, so I texted my mom that. My nerves were so bad that I got like an iced latte and drank a bit to calm me down. I swear I wasn't stalling for time. Then Wacky met my parents. Literally nothing happened. My mom tried inviting him for dinner, but we already ate, and my dad just acknowledged him because he was on a phone call. Then Wacky left. Then I got myself a new book. I went home and rested.
I am so in love witht his boy I wish I could put it into words.

December 11, 2023

My Duolingo streak has officially ended at 668 days. It was fun while it lasted. And stressful. I was so busy this week that I didn’t even notice how I’ve been neglecting the bird that has kept me hostage for years now. This isn’t Stockholm Syndrome I swear. It’s okay. It was eventually gonna end anyway. I was an hour late to class again. I’m really living up to my prodigy name I swear. If I were inside literally any film ever, I’d be my favorite character. I’d say my life is very well balanced. I’m insanely smart, but it seems like I’m not taking anything seriously from the amount of absences, lates, and written warnings I have, but at the same time, I can also study for 10 hours straight without burning out. I've been drawing for Skylar’s group of friends for them to post it on social media with their signature. I find it funny. They were literally fighting over who’d get to post which drawing. I’m not about all that social media thing, so it’s cool even when they’re taking credit for it. Our research was insane. We had our defense today, and I totally carried. I answered everything, not just questions thrown at me, but literally every question ever. We’re considered the smart group, and what was only supposed to be a meeting for 20 minutes turned into an hour of debate. I specifically could cite everything I had said from the paper. The problem we did have was that we made the panelists and research teachers fight each other. It’s not my fault their conflict is reflecting on their students. They asked us to change quite a lot of stuff, but I could also tell that they were saying quite a lot of absolute nonsense. I’m a smart person; I can tell when people are talking for the sake of talking. In their case, they just had to make remarks I know full well are empty. That was one tiring hour. It did pay off since after we got out of the conference room, all I could hear was a bunch of praises on how I saved everyone’s butt. You’re welcome.
I got home and studied. Well, not immediately, but I still did. I'm having my finals tomorrow. I FaceTimed with Brie, and I fixed my whole study setup to make her watch me study. I’m an academic weapon. I can manage. Somehow, I can study better when I’m studying in bed. I do always have the risk of falling into the traps of my comfy bed and falling off for the rest of the night, but other than that, I think studying in bed boosts my productivity. Weirdly enough…
I’m not big on showing off, but I do with Wacky a lot. One of my friends even purposely disabled my phone from how much I showed him off. He’s so perfect.

December 10, 2023

I wasn’t too rushed with my study schedule. I knew I had to flip through my research, but I can do that tomorrow. I’ll probably study my part and make the PowerPoint for that later too. I watched a few episodes of the anime I’ve been watching and wasted a lot of time. Early on the evening, we had this problem with this one classmate who threw some weird tantrum in the class group chat. That alone would’ve been fine, but he temporarily left our research group too. He might not be the dumbest person, but he’s not really that much of an asset either. I handled everything, made a new group chat, discussed all that needed discussions, and unlike his very taxing constant state of panic and worry, I just delegated the tasks and finished to leave the rest of preparations for tomorrow when we have the facility to. He, despite leaving, was messaging me and my other friend since he seemed like not having control and demand (that usually is never followed) was eating him up. He left and was letting his emotions affect school projects. I’m petty; if I had the chance, I would've kicked him out. Then I studied for my Media and Literature test tomorrow. I actually studied a lot more. I studied the whole syllabus not knowing I was only supposed to study like a single unit. Too bad, I guess I just have to retain the extra ones I learned too. And when I say studied, I meant it in a "I memorized my whole notes word per word" way. I’m good.

December 09, 2023

I’ve been sleeping a lot earlier recently. It feels nice knowing my workload is slowly decreasing. I can’t wait for school to end. The first thing I did waking up was actually to knit a row on my current project. I cleaned up my room, and everything is just feels so peaceful right now.
Something I noticed from my baby brother’s lessons is that they changed the traditional way of teaching phonics into sight words. That’s pretty dumb. I mean, it’s always better to be able to critically think and construct your own words in your mind and not just mindlessly memorize a bunch of random words. I remember when I first started learning how to read (and I was advanced), I used to read every single sign I saw, and I was so proud of myself. I don’t know when these changes happened, and as much as I love advancing, I don’t think this is the best approach for teaching kids how to read on their own. I did a bunch of statement of financial positions, comprehensive incomes, and cash flows for our proposed business. It was definitely a tedious and time-consuming task. We have the most to do because we had the most products and other extra stuff. I’m not exactly in charge of that; I usually just do the math for everything. I caved in and started watching Haikyuu - probably the only anime I have yet to watch because of my stubbornness in not watching something that was popular during the pandemic. I’m over that now, and it’s actually a pretty promising show. I did my nails! It’s breaking, and I’m trying out a band-aid solution so it doesn't completely break. I don't think this is the best idea ever, but I'll at least try. I did gel black chrome nails! Very pretty. I also played a few rounds of hide and seek with my baby brother. There was this one instance when he hid in this dark spot and ended up finding his hiding spot too scary, so he suddenly screamed he couldn't hide anymore because he was too scared. He’s so funny, I swear. Not that revealing his hiding spot mattered; he’s usually always talking, breathing so loud, or making unnecessary noises and movements, so he’s really easy to find.

December 08, 2023

I once told my parents about the health benefits of eggs. While there are numerous studies supporting that statement, I initially learned about it from a teacher. It all started as a suggestion since I was a kid prone to getting sick often. But since that day, they’ve been boiling eggs for me every single day. Whenever I enter their room, I always find a hard-boiled egg too.
I was on a call with Wacky last night and fell asleep on him again. Then I woke up at around 4 AM, possibly waking him up too. He told me to go back to sleep. Not long after, at around 7 AM, I woke up again, which also woke him up. So, he made me go back to sleep. Eventually, we both woke up at around 10 AM to start the day, or so he thought. But really, I just went back to sleep again. An hour later, I woke up and played with my baby brother for a bit. Then I slept some more, and even more after that. I seriously slept the entire day. I attempted knitting, but it was unsuccessful.
I went back on the call with Wacky right before bed, we talked about the ever so devastating date: January 20th. I'm so in awe of how much he values me, but we both know it won't work like that. Not with the time and distance. I cried.

December 07, 2023

Time does not pressure me at all. I left my house 20 minutes after my first period had already begun. I knew I was going to be late, so I might as well take my time. I am also well aware that we’re not really having any discussions, so really, nothing is that deep even if I decided I wanted to skip. I’m a very smart person. When I got to school, the only thing I did was plan for our upcoming Christmas party. The rest was free time. During PE, we gossiped with the coach over some recent rumors going around school. Then I decided to bail on everyone and buy myself carbonara. I bought my friends fries too because I’m really nice. I did have an oral exam today. Not to worry, I obviously aced it. In fact, the perfect score was already guaranteed before I even answered. My teacher had this luck-based roulette that would determine which question we would get based on your spin, but there was also this small chance of being able to read from your notes. I have insanely lucky hands. I even announced it in class before spinning. Good thing I didn’t have to eat my words. I had research consultation after, and that’s about it.
Somebody called me a goldfish. That's funny.

December 06, 2023

It’s my birthday! I am 18. This might take a while to process. Will I ever find myself out of the workshop? I doubt I’m equipped with enough knowledge for anything ever. If I do, it’s probably too limited for use. What if I don’t want to leave? I want to stay home where I can take off all my shoes, socks, and jacket. I don’t want the weight that comes with this age. I’m a defect. There’s no potential to be preserved. No one can salvage an already molded can. I’m past my shelf life with the life expectancy of too soon. I’d rather be stored in the far back of a cupboard. I’ll collect all the dust in the world. I don’t want to move forward. You can tidy up someone that only takes up space for all I care; I’ll find a corner and hold on to my childhood.
It is currently 12 AM, and I am on a Facetime call with Sirko. I am very happy. I received her package not too long ago, and I’m opening it now. I’ve been waiting for this. At 12, I read her letter, which took so long. I had very long side comments that branched out into whole conversations with each sentence that I read. I’m grateful to have her as my friend. Then, of course, I opened her actual gift. She got me this frog stuffed toy. I named her Musho. She looks like a mushroom. She also added in some items from Sephora. The best ever.
I don’t have any birthday plans. I will not be hosting a party, not even a hangout. I have a dance recital today and an orthodontist appointment. So, I did those. At the dance recital, my friends were telling birthday jokes, so that was fun. They remembered. After I performed, I actually fell asleep then snuck out of the event, so when they called on me to receive the awards on stage, I was gone. When I was about to be picked up, my baby brother actually got me flowers. That’s the sweetest thing ever. I changed my clothes in the car and went to my appointment. I experienced the worst pain ever. Whatever braces adjustment they did, all I knew was that I desperately needed painkillers. Everything hurts, I am mentally drained, and my heart is heavy. I cried. Maybe, I was using the physical pain as an excuse to cry. I knew that I was sad. I couldn’t pinpoint what exactly was making me sad, but I knew I was. When I got home, I saw that my mom had bought me a gift, set up the table with more flowers and balloons, and prepared my favorite food along with a cake for me to make a wish. I’m glad they care. I don’t think I’ve celebrated my birthday in a while. I’m always throwing myself a solo pity party. I swear I’m not doing it on purpose.

December 05, 2023

I had a very generous amount of sleep today. I slept at around 11:50, which is by far the earliest I’ve slept in a while. I’m getting the hang of it. The finance, production, logistics, and marketing were all well-linked. I felt like I was playing Overcooked or one of those pizzeria games. I was taking orders, writing them down, delivering my lines like an absolute NPC, and doing some easy math. It was actually very fun. We even gained some loyal customers who placed large orders. The marketing team recruited some kids from the first day to advertise for us too. It was chaotic. The kids were shoving our posters into their teachers' faces. We did have a sabotaging incident that we thought was an accident yesterday. Someone unplugged all our appliances, and we had to pause taking orders for some of our menu items. We also ran out of oil, so the production team had to order some online and hope for the best. Despite all that, we pushed through. Special thanks to Brie because she lined up at our booth, which had an incredibly long line, just to show her support for me. A real friend right there. At the end of the day, I was finally given the chance to sit down. My body had probably ceased all communication with my brain. I didn’t even know that I was this tired. When I stood back up, I felt my legs wobble and literally fell down. At least I know that the day was successful. We ended the day with an unbelievable amount of money in my cashbox. I didn’t even want to handle it. We counted everything, did more auditing, and submitted it to our supervisors. That was it for our business. It was definitely a learning experience. I would definitely do this again. I wish I could thank everyone for the immense support. Our Business Education Week is officially over. The results of the competition came out today. We won every single award except for one. We were the best in profitability, the best booth, the best in marketing, and of course, the major award of being the overall champion. The one we didn’t win was, I think, something related to food criteria. But that was just stupid since I don’t think the judges understood that lattes aren’t meant to be sweet. Well, we can’t have all the awards entirely; they'd think it’s rigged. Everyone in our class participated. Not a single person was dormant, and I think that our class bond and dynamic are really awesome. We’ve been the talk of the school for a couple of days now. Some context on this event: our upperclassmen who have already graduated, and the ones before them too, have actually been losing this business competition. It’s good to reclaim our spots back. To be fair, I did figure out why they probably have been losing. It’s because the other strands didn’t necessarily have a limit on their markups. Basically, a scam. But it’s all good. We won even in our condition. Some valuable things I learned are that: 1. Coins are very important 2. I can pick myself back up as long as I’m adaptable and 3. It’s not that scary to invest - as long as you’re smart about it, that is.

December 04, 2023

It’s going to be a very long day, and I need to be mentally prepared. It’s the start of our Business Education Week, which means it’s also the opening for our class business. Our marketing team, led by Skylar, did such a good job that we are by far the most popular and anticipated by customers. Failing is not an option. We invested our own money as a class to fund this too. We’re not looking to breakeven; we need to make a profit. We have quite a lot of competition, but it should be okay. I printed a bunch of flyers early in the morning and got to school early. We had a short meeting about the system the other finance member has constructed. He had printed out guides, and I quickly memorized them. This is where the problem started. I’ll get to that later. When the ribbon was cut, there was already a line that formed before I could even react. It was incredibly long. I was on the cashier too since I was the only one smart and fast enough for it. For the first few minutes, we were all in a state of panic. I quickly regained my composure and decided to scrap the system that was suggested earlier. It wasn’t working out for me, and it wasn’t working out for the production team either. I had to adapt. There were too many things to be memorized, and there was this weird formula I had to follow. So I made a few adjustments. Everything that followed, went by very smoothly. You're welcome. I was very efficient with my tasks. I was conversing with the customers, taking orders, computing change, and posting the said orders up. It was a foolproof system. There was not a single moment when I could rest. For almost 8 hours straight, I had my hands busy on soemthing. I didn’t have any replacements either because nobody else was up for it. That and everybody else already had their own tasks. Just before the second wave, which was recess for the other students on campus, we ran out of change. We needed small bills and coins. I was ordering some of my other classmates to go exchange them with literally anyone. Another person came to help me at the front desk, and we made a pretty good duo. We sold all our products before lunch. And in case you’re wondering, we were selling milkshakes, coffee, pastries, other sweets, and savory foods. It was a lot. Props to the production team for keeping up with all the orders I took. I was so fast-paced. After that, since we had an early leave, I was called to the overall finance department to audit our profit for the day. The non-business students were struggling so much that we had to help them. They were forced to balance their logs and literally making up numbers. So we ended up computing their net and sales revenue. Anyway, our first day was great. We had a little meeting before going home and talked about increasing our inventory by three times. We had quite the high demand anyway.

December 03, 2023

I am the biggest Studio Ghibli fan. I’ve watched almost all of Hayao Miyazaki’s films. I find comfort in all his undefined and open endings. I even listen to Joe Hisaishi’s pieces as often as I drink my water. I was on the hunt for The World of Ghibli’s Animation Exhibition Bangkok 2023 located on the top floor of CentralWorld. I got tickets and was actually one of the first few people to enter. It was pretty early in the morning, but it was the most perfect time. I got to enjoy the whole exhibit almost all to myself. We were given this ink stamp booklet to collect as a little activity at each Studio Ghibli film station we went to. The whole exhibit was filled with extremely detailed installations and objects. At some of the stations, you could line up for and get some interactive pictures. Everything was so well-made. The films that had an entire station appearance were the following (in my best attempt to keep them in order): Nausicaa of the Valley, Howl’s Moving Castle, Castle in the Sky, Kiki’s Delivery Service, Porco Rosso, My Neighbor Totoro, Princess Mononoke, Spirited Away, Porco Rosso, Spirited Away, and Pom Poko. My favorite part of this was the Hall of Fame, which was a whole section dedicated to Studio Ghibli’s sketches. I used to be very obsessed with Studio Ghibli’s animation process. It is not a phase. I have so much respect for the animators behind my favorite films. It was filled with detailed concept sketches, animation frames, image boards, dialogues, shot divisions, layouts, notes, and everything! I was completely overwhelmed. Sadly, I had to part with this exhibit. Before I left, I got some postcards as a keepsake. I got myself a drink at Tim Hortons before checking out from our hotel. Then we went straight to the airport. My academic responsibilities are never leaving me. I received a call from the class to sort out a certain problem they had. I worked on the finance team (highest-paid), and I listened to everyone’s ideas and concerns and just made it more coherent so they’d stop arguing.

December 02, 2023

I am seventeen and I have a lot of girlhood I need to catch up to. The only thing on our itinerary is shopping. The chosen mall for this was Siam Paragon, my favorite mall. I only had one thing in mind: I wanted to go to their Sephora. Since our hotel was only a block away (which I found out through Google Maps), we walked the mile to the mall. After following my mom and her best friend around for a bit, we finally found ourselves in Sephora. I got a huge haul. I restocked on some favorites, got the drops from Drunk Elephant, the Sol De Janeiro 68s, and a couple of other items too. It was very expensive, but I am just a girl. There was also this encounter where we helped out this girl with her little wardrobe problem. We had ramen for lunch, and I chose the spicy option. It stained my all-white fit. Then, there was this area on the top floor that had a bunch of toys and stationery on the same floor. While my mom spent a little more than an hour shopping for Christmas decor, I was adopting bears. I made one for me and one for Sirko. I’ve been collecting stuff for her gift basket I’m sending out to her soon. I dressed up both the bears I got for us with backward blue caps. It’s an inside joke. It’s the default set. I also got hers a pair of glasses. I was having so much fun I couldn’t help myself from spoiling it to her. She named hers Saco. I bought my bear a few other outfits too in case of certain occasions. Then of course, I didn’t forget about Wacky. I finally found an actual realistic duck stuffed toy. I had so much fun in that section. We went back to the hotel since my mom wanted to drop off her haul. I took that time to fix my things up. When staying at a hotel, I’m the type to never unpack my suitcase. I’ll keep it organized inside and reach for them inside when I need to use them. It keeps me from worrying about leaving my stuff at the hotel after check out. After that, we visited this new Ikea in Sukhumvit. If I’m not mistaken, I think the opening of it occurred literally just yesterday. There was this whole concert inside too. They must’ve been a pretty popular band since the people seemed to be singing along to their songs quite well. I don’t really know them, so I just walked past it. We went inside the store, and my mom got some stuff. I bought my baby brother the Blahaj shark, and I got one of those stuffed toy vegetable sets. My stuffed children back home need food too. We ate dinner

December 01, 2023

We have a day tour today. The schedule was moved last minute to an earlier hour, so I had to wake up extra early. I had bacon for breakfast. Last year, I declared that Thailand bacon was on top of my bacon rankings. I have yet to be proven wrong. We were picked up by a car that took us to the bus area. We met with a bunch of old people and my mom’s friends. We had a 2-hour-long ride. I do remember that we did take a short 15-minute stop at a convenience store. It’s the same one we went to last year if my memory isn’t failing me, and I think that's a pretty cool coincidence. What are the chances? We went to this non-cruelty elephant attraction trail and river thing. The whole place had huge elephant turds scattered around. They didn’t reek of any smell, though, so that was cool. I interacted with an elephant. Well, it was more like me petting it a couple of times and trying to act like I was an animal whisperer. It was fun seeing them up close. I mean, really close, no restrictions. They were taking a bath by the river. It’s a shame that I wasn’t made aware of this; I would’ve brought extra clothes with me. We then went to this buffet thing for lunch. The food was surprisingly average. The next thing we visited was the Death Railway in Kanchanaburi. It was originally built during World War 2 and had a pretty horrible history behind it. Beside it was the Krasae Cave, which we checked out too. It took us 3 hours to get back to the city. During the bus ride, I finished some of my pending writings. We looked around some night markets. The only one I can remember is Pratunam. We ate at McDonald's, and for fast food, I’m giving it a chef's kiss. Thai food will never fail to satisfy my taste buds. We wasted the rest of the night shopping at the Platinum Malls and other random shops.