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November 30, 2023

I was sleepwalking to the airport. My mom and her best friend are having another trip, and I was tagged along. We went to the lounge, and since my eyes were already closed, it wasn’t that hard for me to drift off to sleep. I don’t even remember boarding the plane. In the blink of an eye (thanks to my great ability of falling asleep at will), I found myself in Thailand before I could even notice. I was with one of my aunts too. My first purchase was a bottle of milk and a sandwich. While waiting for our ride to the hotel, I adjusted my headphones' equalizer. I love it when the music in my ears is crisp. We rested for a bit in our hotel then went out before the day ended. I was starving. I especially love this country for its food, so obviously, we went to the night food market to have a feast. It had the most distinct mouthwatering smell ever. It wasn’t emanating from any particular food, but if it were a food itself, I can assure you it would taste good. After all, it was just a mix of every Thai dish offered in that location. We were in front of the CentralWorld mall. They were hosting a Pokémon event (more on Pikachu). After our meal, we went inside the mall, and I simply followed my mom. I didn’t buy anything. Music kept me company as I walked around and soaked in the new environment. To be completely honest, that might’ve been what I’ve been missing these past few weeks. I haven’t been listening to music since I’ve been so busy, which also means I haven’t been able to drown out my thoughts. I still feel kind of empty. But I’m fine. I’ll be fine again. After my mom finished shopping, we stopped by Big C and picked up a few grocery items. Upon returning to the hotel, I rested for a bit, cleaned myself up, and then went to sleep to ensure I got enough rest for the following day.

November 29, 2023

My scheduled graduation picture, started at around 8:30 AM, so I decided I'd be late. I really do control my own time. I was supposed to drop my little brother off for his field trip around 6 AM, which meant I had to wake up incredibly early, but I just couldn't. Anwyay, I eventually took my graduation shot. We had to dress up as movie characters too for creative shots. I chose Anakin, obviously. I didn't let the makeup artists touch my face. But I did have them do my hair - a rookie mistake. I did my hair before that, and it was way better. They tried adding glitters and falsies, but it didn't work out, so I removed them. I quickly took the formal shot and the other in costume. The photographer was a Star Wars fan, so he had a bunch of ideas for me to try out. He got so excited.
I have another date with Wacky. He just got back from another trip! For some weird reason, whenever we meet up, it's always the day before I have to go on a flight or the day he has just departed (or something along those lines). He wanted to walk me from school, but it didn't work out because he was stopped and was asked for an ID. I met him halfway, and then we went to the mall. He ate; I genuinely just don't eat. It's a problem I've had for so long. Oh my god, he gave me Star Wars socks; he's completing the arsenal, he says. I got Biscoff because it's physically impossible for me not to get it whenever I go there. We met this dog at the dog cafe, and the dog was obsessed with Wacky. It was so attractive how good he was with dogs. He showed me some dog tricks he had up his sleeves, and I was literally falling in love with him all over again. We played with the dog for some time. We walked around until he decided he wanted to watch a movie, but the mall we were at had no good shows. I told him no, but he found a way to watch anyway and took me to another mall. I like being with him. We stayed silent during the ride, and he just made himself comfortable... I like it. We were late to the movie by a minute. He made me run (I didn't, but I was struggling, and I was so out of breath). We watched the movie (Trolls Band Together - All I remember if I'm being honest), as originally intended. Then I showed him around because this mall is literally my second home. I'm here probably three times or more a week. It's pretty here. He got Coco, and then I showed him some hangout spots, especially Sirko and mine’s spot, where her and I first hung out. He wanted to go to the bookstore and as far as I know, he has only read two Harry Potter books. It surprised me that he would ask that. I am proud of him. I found out there's a new book in one of my collections. I'll get back to that some other time. I have too much on my to-be-read pile. After that, he suggested we do the TikTok trend I sent him a few weeks back. Oh, I forgot about the part where he was tormenting me with his weird (sorry, Wacky) Donald Duck and Spongebob impressions. I was running away from him, and then the paper bag that had my costume broke, so I made him carry it. I am literally so in love with him. We went upstairs to another hangout spot. It's best for filming TikToks because there aren't that many people there. We sat down for a bit, then set up our stuff in our first location. We failed. It's the couple’s trend where you walk back and bump into each other, then kiss under the sound of "Out Of My League." We (he) choreographed our own because I wanted to do lightsaber tricks. We did this for like an hour straight. I was so convinced we had that many takes because he just wanted to kiss me, but we were both so sweaty, it became an actual perfectionist issue (his). We changed locations, and this time we actually succeeded. I was having the best time ever. It was fun, and I felt genuinely happy. We rested in between takes because it was that serious. When we finished, we went to buy water. He was also getting really comfortable in the grocery aisles. Then we went down to the spot that Sirko and I love. We sat and had a recap of the day. He was giving me kisses the whole day, like a lot of them. Even when I was about to leave, he followed up with 30 more. I got my brother's drive-thru food. My baby brother told me all about his field trip too. There was this zipline activity that he ended up not doing because he was too scared. The way he tells his stories is always so funny. I have a flight tomorrow, and I have to be up by like 3 am. I stayed up doing my research. No wonder I feel dead; I haven't even gotten proper sleep in a while. The time I spent with Wacky today replayed like a broken record over and over again until I fell asleep.

November 28, 2023

My class is currently on the blacklist of many teachers. Not that it concerns me as much. I feel awful right now. I did something stupid. I altered something I shouldn’t have. This is an important lesson for me, but I lack the confidence to address it. I was foolish. When will I stop making mistakes? Why is everything going so wrong recently? After school, I treated myself to a self-care day. I did my usual pamper routine at the mall, painted my nails pink chrome, and so on. Upon returning home, I worked on my research paper for a marketing plan and had a productive video call with Brie. Despite feeling very sad, I cannot afford to neglect myself. I'll get over it.

November 27, 2023

I'm not sure why, but I've been lacking the sense of urgency to do any of my deadlines. I feel so overwhelmed and burnt out. I asked Brie to call me and I’ve been inviting her from time to time but it hasn’t been working since she’s busy. I am in such bad need for company. As much as I hate to admit it, I wallow in self-pity when I’m left to my own devices. I called Skylar and we did our homework, which turns out we had the same ones since we always get the math parts of group works. I tried memorizing my script. It's a huge mark on my grade but for some reason, I'm being so lenient on myself. I'm scared for the outcome of my own leniency but I can't be hard on myself right now. I think I’m on this weird defense mode. I am so close to losing it all. I've never been so easy with myself. I had a rap battle with Skylar and everything.

November 26, 2023

I can’t fall apart now. I’m not letting it happen. Band-aids will do for now. I’m not gonna let myself be unguarded. I have my pride and ego to thank for. It keeps me going every day. Obviously, I am still a human being, and I struggled in getting out of my frozen state. I had Starbucks to start the day. I feel empty. I Facetimed Sirko and now we’re two empty people. I memorized more materials while Sirko did her own set of homework. I made a few summary notes too. We talked about some dumb stuff. We made fun of people (I know, how horrible, but you can’t tell me that you haven’t done this too). I hope I get a bad dream so it cancels my overdue karma out and I don’t experience anything worse. Sirko has ended and started her new day and I was still studying. I am very distracted. I’m fixated on the post-its that I had on my desk. I was drawing Wacky. My mind is outside the gutter. I am memorizing and I’m trying my best to retain that memory. I went into a very depressing loophole today. The only thing good about today is that I watched Pewdiepie again and I swear I love his new videos. Contrary to those who think that he’s changed, I appreciate how he has matured over the last decade. I like his reading videos. His new one that I watched today was about him learning how to draw. If you’ve watched him for long enough, you’d be proud of the things he’s trying out. I’ve always been a sidequest person. It’s part of me to learn new things all the time. I made my baby brother watch the Five Nights At Freddy’s lore. I also taught him about the milk cartons and cereal trick so he doesn't have to get a bowl. He's so proud of it he wants to make it his packed lunch for school tomorrow. He told us he’d show it to his teacher. He usually cries after school whenever I pick him up because he gets like a scolding a day, but it’s great to see him still get excited over impressing his teacher. It feels so cruel whenever he has to experience those, but I get it, he won't learn without some mistakes here and there. Any kid usually starts with only love to give. Why does this kind of love always get spoiled eventually? So yeah, I’ve been doing all that instead of memorizing my script.

November 25, 2023

I love the rain. It mutes everything around me. It mutes me.
I am crying because of my grades. Not that anything is wrong with them, it’s just that I wouldn’t be on the top of the rankings anymore. We have different teachers for the same subject in different classes, and my friend who wasn’t exactly as smart as me got hundreds on what should’ve been a hard subject. My whole class (we’re in Class A, the smartest) all agreed that the highest our Finance teacher could give was like an A. She got a hundred on hers because her teacher had a different set of easier lessons. Isn’t that unfair? And she was complaining over how one of my smart classmates went to her to tell her that the grades were rigged. It honestly was. But I guess the game of luck takes part in this too. I went to Skylar for some advice on a couple of problems I’ve been having. He has always been my go-to. To be fair, a year ago, our roles were completely swapped. He was at his lowest last year. I’m following in his footsteps. I think I just unlocked a new level of maturity. I've been so unmotivated lately. Obviously, I'm still doing well since I can turn off my mind and do the work needed to be done, but I don't enjoy it and I think it's because I'm realizing how arbitrary everything is. That certain things won't have exact results just because you prepared for it hard enough. And that’s okay. I read a new manhwa and procrastinated a lot today. By the time I did get myself to move, I shortly found out that the teachers have yet to upload the materials that we needed to study. Skylar has a good relationship with his parents. Although mine isn't as bad, he told me to ask my parents for some advice too. I’ve been trying to talk to them but they think so little of me I want to cry (I did cry). This is the first time I'm saying this where I actually mean it with all my heart, bro, I want to give up. I think I've lost the gloss in my eyes. Everything is shifting. Everything was so overwhelming that now it's all bland.

November 24, 2023

Another relatively early start for my day. I woke up to snooze my alarm and saw Wacky’s name spelled out on my screen. I’m on a call with him again. I’m using that as a boost to power up for the day. I think the best asset that I have for school is the folder that I carry around everywhere. It makes everything easier. I swear by it. Being a girl frustrates me a lot. I always have to try twice as hard. I always have something to prove. None of that is ever credited though. Isn't it such a tragic curse? They always question everything I do. It's unfair. One can say that maybe I'm just horrible at what I do. Maybe I don't deserve that much merit. But it’s still cruel for all the talents I have and effort I put. It’s a good thing that my mind is well adjusted for situations like this. Everything is a decent opportunity. I think people underestimate the power of being underrated. I’ll let people misunderstand me. It’ll hurt them twice as hard when I prove them wrong. My teacher got mad at me today because of reasons that I still can’t quite formulate. I'm literally going to be the first present for our speech thing. I literally have a hundred in her class. But she was making dumb remarks talking about this girl who's presenting on the first day who has yet to have her paper checked. I've had my paper checked. There was only one other dude and he has for sure had his paper checked and he wouldn’t be forgotten. He's on top of the class. But my grades are higher than his. But he's always acknowledged. Mine aren't. Ever. It's so unfair. Why is this always something I have to worry about? Witches hunt witches too. Today’s the second day of the event my school has. My friend Rhett is having another band performance. It’s their first time playing for our school again after a long while of not being able to. They’ve come a long way. They’ve opened for some popular artists and even had concerts of their own. I’m proud of them.
I have an observation. Recently, I’ve been giving people the eye. Everything has been setting me off. I am the type of person to always smile and give people fist bumps and high fives in the hallways. Anyway, I bought food for lunch and met up with Ria at the library. She introduced me to this quiet dude who was doodling. Pretty cool. We had mass after and I just played the Watermelon (Suica) game the whole time. It’s my new obsession. I skipped club today (with consent) and filmed an advertisement for my Marketing class. It was so last minute. My teacher literally went up to us and informed us to film one and pass it by midnight. She wasn't even on today’s class schedule

November 23, 2023

I did not struggle out of bed today. This might just be the earliest I have ever woken up this year. I am not late. I have also made the conscious decision to stop bringing a bag to school. The bag I had barely had anything in it anyway. I’d usually bring my calculator, 3 lip products, and like concealer that I never touch. I am in the Christmas spirit. It’s not just because of Sabrina’s new EP. Sirko is also giving me this Christmas basket. We’re trading! Isn’t that the cutest? My whole class applauded me for coming to class early. Not exactly the best response since that’s like giving me appreciation for not doing something bad for once. I’m not complaining though. I’m only getting away with this because of how incredibly smart I am. We had a bunch of essays we had to write for our entrepreneurship class today. We were given 10 questions to answer with 5 sentences each. Our time was very limited. Since we were our teacher’s favorite class, she made it 3 sentences each. We still were not able to complete the task on time. Okay well, I did. But not the rest of the class. We’re still talking about taxes in our Finance class but since one of my classmates who has been taking leaves of absences for his military training academy thing came, our teacher just gave us free time so that the dude could have time to catch up. Our PE class was separated into 2 (not in a 1:1 ratio). The dancers, and the non-dancers. I was picked to be in one of the dancers. We’re gonna have a folk recital. Which means I’m getting another hundred this semester. Our school had this event and the campus was filled with food stalls. We had 2 hours of lunch and Tony joined us! The last class I had was research, which means more free time. I was so hungry after school that I was regurgitating. I was so close to vomiting. I carpooled with Brie and got Panda Express. She came with me to get dropped off somewhere on the way. When I got home, I fell straight asleep. That was a pretty long day. Oh, Skylar and I did a bunch of TikToks. He asked me to put all of them in the shared album and I swear this is a repeat of 8th grade. I was originally gonna study before sleeping, but the test we had for tomorrow was moved. I spent the rest of the night on a call with Wacky.

November 22, 2023

Me and Wacky finally slept called again. It's been a while. It's because we’ve both been so unavailable recently. He would be in another country, I'd be in another country, he’d have people over, I'd have more tests coming up, all that stuff. He woke me up so I was greeted with smile on my face first thing in the morning. He was so cute about it too. But then he had to go after literally interrupting my sleep. He really just woke me up for no reason. He was so insistent too. I was telling him to stay with me instead and don't go but all I'd get is a giggle. When he did eventually leave, I fell right back into my bed and slept. Sorry, wacky. I woke up, ate rice then made myself some toast and coffee. I studied a bit of math… not really… not even at all. I just asked some classmates what the concept was about. I'll wing it on the day of the test (tomorrow, first class). I once again, memorized the new lessons cover to cover in theology. It sucked. I got a folding table and put it beside my bed and studied there. It boosted my productivity by a lot. I really need to buy those bed tables in Ikea. High risk, hard reward. The risk of my head touching the pillow and sleeping in through the rest of the night, but the best memorizing environment I’m finding myself to be at. Look, I don't know how it works, but it does. I studied got crazy. The usual. I know I’ve already ranted about this before, but our theology teacher not only gives out test questions that weren’t discussed or in topic, but she also gives out false information. Especially with dates.

November 21, 2023

I slept through my alarm. I washed my face, brushed my teeth, picked the first outfit I touched, and headed straight to school. I cannot afford to be late. Today is field trip day. It’s a good thing that my friend bought me McDonald's on his way to school. Being the only person in class missing from attendance, I was about to be left behind by the bus. But by some weird chance, our teacher was late too. We couldn't possibly go without a teacher accompanying us. How the gods favor me. The bus ride wasn't too bad. I slept through the whole duration, and before I knew it, we were already at the destination. We’re going to be farming. The first thing I noticed (besides the sun blinding us) was that it smelled like flowers. The environment was very pretty. We did a couple of activities. The first one being chili pepper picking. We were taught to properly pick, then were given small plastic bags to fill in for us to keep. I was actually pretty good at it. One of the guys there even helped me and gave me a handful. We also got to cut out calabash. They were pretty big. Then we planted our own plant. I’m not quite sure what it was, but I had like a small soil with a sprout then dug up space for it and just buried it. It was very simple. The next activity was making newspaper pots and putting another plant inside of it. We get to keep that one too. Then we fished, which I was an absolute prodigy at. It took me 3 seconds to catch one. The rest struggled a lot, and it took a while for the second person to catch another after me. I’m honoring this achievement to all the digital fishing mini games I've ever played. Now for the dirtiest part of the trip. I honestly thought that I wouldn't have had to participate because of how messy things would have gotten, but without second thoughts, I went into the muddy water. We planted small rice seeds, and I could feel the tadpoles swimming around my feet. It was honestly so disgusting. The ground was very slimy, and I could feel all kinds of textures. After that whole thing, I tried washing my feet, but I was met with someone spraying hose water on everyone. I was soaking wet. But I was free and having fun. We rode carabaos next. We went by a short route that had a dip midway. It was funny. Before we left, we washed ourselves and changed our clothes. I ate the lunch takeout my friend bought for me, and that was the end of it. Best believe I had a thorough shower when I got home. And that’s coming from someone who showers in an irregular amount daily.

November 20, 2023

Did my teachers have a meeting and decide it was taxation day? Almost all the classes I took today only talked about taxes. I had to memorize a lot of laws around it too. Academics are taking over my brain again. I was cramming a few other subjects too. This caused a need for compensation in my body. I was famished. I needed carbohydrates. So I went on a quest to find a very specific meal. After I consumed my recovery sustenance, I got back on my feet and did research. School drained me out. I have been so incredibly busy these past few months that my calendar is a mess. It's almost at the point of being unsalvageable

November 19, 2023

I woke up early and went to the testing site with my parents. They dropped me off, and I was just hoping for the best. I'm not exactly the most prepared for this, but my brother did get into this college. I only applied for the top colleges, and this is by far the one I'm least concerned about. My brother warned me about it, and I have no plans to pursue this. Before I entered the building, I was already hearing about how the Science portion of it was really hard. I brushed this aside, knowing I've always excelled in this subject. I was wrong. After the test, I was exhausted. The overall test wasn't the hardest, but I think the science part is the worst I've done on a test yet. The test ended pretty late, and I was empty. I'm tired and overwhelmed. I'd write details about this day, but I don't think I have it in me to write any more. It's not helping that my talk with Wacky today is pretty depressing too.

November 18, 2023

The bell thing that's supposed to wake us up was echoing through the hallways first thing in the morning. We an early mass. My eyes were barely open. We had breakfast too, which woke me up for quite a bit, but I am most definitely not a morning person. Not with my current sleeping pattern, that is. I had a lollipop. Lane gave it to me. The bus ride back was interesting. The seat I was assigned to was dirty. I refused to sit down. That was until Ria laid down her jacket in my seat. It was the sweetest thing ever. I appreciate her so much. She has this aura that makes you feel really comfortable. When I got home, I took no time heading straight to the shower. I took a 3-hour shower, a short break, a 2-hour shower, another break, then one last hour for safety measures. After that, I slept for 6 whole hours straight. Before that, I tried convincing Wacky to eat a meal because he's sick and hasn't been eating anything. I also just found out that Sabrina finally released her new Holiday EP. I am a sucker for it. It's called Fruitcake, and it's the most amazing thing ever. I am obsessed. I'm playing it on loop. She revived the Christmas spirit I've lost in years. I took a bunch of Christmas-themed pictures just because I was in a good mood. Around nighttime, I finished the speech I was assigned to. My topic was especially hard since there was no previous research done on that subject. I think I did a pretty great job making things up, though. Don't worry, I'm a high achiever; this all comes easy to me. I was very productive. I reviewed a few of my past lessons too. I have another college test to take tomorrow. How tiring.

November 17, 2023

I woke up really early to meet up with the people in my class. We're riding a bus to the mountains. It's like this thing my school has where we're supposed to cleanse and be closer to God or whatever. We weren't allowed to have our phones, so most of us brought dummy phones. I was not an exception. Ria gave me a letter too! Back when we were in grade school, it was part of the program to give out letters to your friend. Honestly, that whole thing was just a popularity check. I've always been great with people. I remember having a huge lot of letters. When we got into our dorms, we put all of our bags down, and everyone started settling in. I was beside Ria and Sine. There was this one annoying girl who has always been kind of infamous who was staying close to us, but I wasn't minding her. Sine was doing all the entertaining, and I was being nice. The day was actually very long. I ate so much too. I had breakfast at home before meeting up with everyone since I figured the ride would be long, but the moment we got here, they gave us like snacks already. Not an hour in, we had breakfast. How do they fit all that eating into one day? While on that topic, we also had like lunch, another afternoon snack, and dinner. They all tasted pretty decent. Some of the ones served were stale, but it was edible, and that's all that matters. Our speaker was pretty cool. He came from France, and he had a lot of experiences to tell. It's sad that he walked out on us before the night ended. I slept a lot. The room the program happened in was like a huge fridge. Everyone was freezing. Not gonna lie, a particular story from the teacher really stuck to me. It was about how even though him and his parents bickered a lot and he wanted to leave their house as soon as he can, when time came that he was alone during the holidays miles away from them, he still wished he was back home. He was actually cool. He was like changing his outfits per theme and everything. In one of the games, he made us draw like this poster per group. That was fun. We had this other activity where we had to write down on a piece of paper certain answers to very personal questions. In one of them, it was asked who cared for us. I wrote Sirko on mine. And when the writing bit was over, we were asked to share it. Ria and I partnered up. She cried. She told me how she just wants to be good. I can guarantee you, she is the nicest person you'll ever meet. It's no question that she's good. But also, I didn't get to mention it, but I really understand what she meant. A lot of the times, my intentions are always questionable. But hey, the results are showing that I'm only helping people around me. I think I'm good. We did some other activities and even a confession. I slept a lot so I could speed up the time. My confession was so short that the priest had to verbally ask me if that was all of it. I'm very concise with my words. I don't think I sin as often. I am saying that as a very self-aware person. I always pretend like I'm clueless, but God knows I always know what I'm doing. The day passed by until I had to face the greatest problem of this retreat: the dorm showers. It went well enough, but it takes me a lot of mental preparation. I hate being a germaphobe. I just want to go back home.

November 16, 2023

I'm working on my blog. It's hard to keep up with the whole everyday entry thing. This is turning more and more into an actual journal log about my life. Honestly, I really like that idea. I've always had the fear of forgetting. I've been told that I am the Tom Holland of one of my friend groups. I'm not a tattletale, but I do tend to slip a lot without knowing it. I'm a great secret keeper, I swear! I have mastered the art of saying too much and yet nothing all at the same time. I've been talking to Wacky about our last date. Our little countdown that has been haunting us. Now I'm crying because of old people. The ones with very obscure accounts hidden in the crannies of YouTube. They tell such nice stories and advice. I think part of me is also crying because of the thought of being so in love with something slowly dying. I'm making a heart out of stupid Legos. I have a school retreat tomorrow so before I slept, I packed up a couple of things for a one-night stay.

November 15, 2023

I don't think I've ever experienced a proper tea party, you know, like the ones you often see in films. Where a girl sets down all her favorite stuffed toys and serves them fake water from a fake kettle. I wish I could set one up just to catch up on recent gossip with my friends. I'd choose a theme, and we'd bake real food. I wish I had friends. Today, I was gossiping with Sirko. We had some good stories to tell. Sirko went out of her way to text one of her exes (kinda) just to get some visual aids for our story. I also got my first hate comment on this website! That's pretty cool. I'm relevant enough to be hated on. Cool, cool. I helped Ria with her blog too. It had a very foreign markup language. I figured it out eventually. It's good to know I still have a coding sense.

November 14, 2023

Nothing of importance occurred in class. It was the same mundane routine. I had a math test today. I probably got a perfect score. That's about it. The sun is harsh, but you're giving me shade. Wacky waited for me for 5 hours. He's insane. Since Tony gets dismissed earlier than me, he met up with Wacky for a while and kept him company. I hope he never gets sick of me. His waiting time is longer than our time limit. Wacky and Tony picked me up after my class. I was previously crying about 10 minutes prior to this meet. One of my programs in a robot I had was sabotaged. I took that personally. I cannot fail in a subject everybody knows I'm a prodigy at. I saw Wacky, and I fell in love all over again. I needed Biscoff in my body since it was my comfort drink. I talked about my classes and the randomest subjects I could think of. I gave him a school backpack and notebook tour too. I take such great pride in my system. It somehow works. I'm acing all my classes when all I bring to school is like a bunch of toys and a single notebook. I brought out a pen from my bag and wrote a little note on a piece of scratch paper. I had previously drawn Joker on that paper. I wrote down on the bottom rigth corner something along the lines of me having a crush on him or me loving him. Either way, it was a very cute note. He stole it from me and told me he'd keep it forever. I hope he keeps his word. We ended up drawing on each other's hands. It's a shame markers aren't permanent on skin. I am so in love with him. He makes everything feel so light. We moved to a location where my friends and I often hang out. I had an unopened box of Legos at home which we built. It was the Lego Batmobile one. I kept Joker minifigure (with the Batman's hand piece) and gave him the rest. I had my legs over him, and I talked more than I connected the blocks. My eyes were glued to him, and so was my whole body. If I had the choice to fuse with him, I would take it in a heartbeat. Before the day ended, he convinced me to "watch" a movie with him. He got tickets for The Marvels and long story short, we did not watch a single second of the movie. I am marked and claimed. When I got home, I started and finished an hour-long script before going to sleep.

November 13, 2023

Wacky's seeing me again tomorrow. My boyfriend! He always puts in so much effort. I mean, he's going through such distance and patience to wait just to see me for a very short and limited time. I appreciate it. He makes me feel like I'm worth all that. I was late to school again. I missed an hour of our first class. I went out of my house exactly when it started. I have no one to blame but myself. Luckily, we had assembly, so I didn't miss much. Unluckily, a teacher saw me, and I couldn't escape getting a late slip. Math was pretty okay. The concept is still pretty vague in my head, but I'll work through it. English was also okay too. I'll be studying when I get home. I studied an hour during lunch too. I'm actually doing stuff again. I acquired yet another perfect score in one of my tests. I also got this topic for a speech I have to do soon. I'll be the first one to present too. How horrible. I hope I do well. I'll just thank relativity. My teacher probably knew that I was already the best in class. When I got home, I kept my promise of the whole "I'll study later" and didn't stop until midnight. I was on a call with Skylar, and we were very productive. I also found out that there's this guy who was flaunting around how I talked to him once. I was just replying, give me a break.

November 12, 2023

Yet another college test to take. I had the afternoon schedule, so I still had to wake up really early, but it was at least a bit manageable. I brushed up on a few topics on my phone and didn’t really do any actual studying prior to the test. I reviewed some math problems and I was good to go. I had a to-go breakfast from Army Navy. The moment I arrived at the testing hall, I started scoping out the competition. Not really in a condescending way, just more on observing people. The wait was very long. I figured this out pretty early and decided to sit down. There was a line organized, and I already found my spot. Everyone else was very timid and stood pretty still wherever they were at. I could only count one other dude who was as relaxed as I was. After a while, the instructors asked for everyone to sit down, and they did as instructed. I am concluding a major differential in the people taking this test. It’s probably not that deep, but it is to me. A few hours passed by, and I finally completed the test. It wasn’t as hard. I remember mid-taking the test I caught the attention of the teacher, and I was told off for sleeping. No, like, I genuinely fell asleep in the first half of the test. I thank myself for being smart every day. A couple of parts of the test were educated guesses, but it was easy as a whole. I wasn’t the most stressed out. I recognized a few familiar faces, and one of them was this dude who I had a bit of (untouchable) history with. He called me from a distance and smiled to initiate a conversation. We were both looking for Skylar, but I had to get picked up and left shortly. What a very tiring day. When I got home, I used Raccoon as an excuse to rewatch Star Wars. It’s part of the tradition for all my children.

November 11, 2023

I am now officially Wacky's girlfriend. This was not planned at all. It's such a pretty date too (11/11). We had a conversation about things I don't remember, and before I knew it, I was already your girlfriend. Wacky arrived from a very long flight. He was still in New York when I fell asleep last night. But now he's in front of me. I can tell that he's tired. He's been waiting, and waiting. He's unbelievable. I found him on a bench, and he made me wear this Star Wars shirt he got for me from his trip. I gave him some things too as it has been a while since we last saw each other. This was a semi-double date. We plan on ditching the other two later. We were with Brie and Bokuto. We ate at Popeyes for a bit. I tried my best to get him to sleep during the pauses we took during our lunch with the other two lovebirds. Our little group is definitely a sight to see, something I'd scoff at if I weren't in my place. We got tickets for Five Nights at Freddy's with very high expectations. We've been waiting for this, especially Bokuto. I only know the lore from like 10 years ago when MatPat was just starting to grow in popularity, so I'm not the most updated. I know the basics of the lore though, so I have enough decent knowledge ready to be equipped for later. We walked around to pass the time, and that's when Wacky and I commenced our ditching plan. We separated ways with Bokuto and Brie. Wacky's energy was very depleted. We sat by this platform area at some abandoned place in the mall and laid down. When the movie started, we even got compliments from this lady who assisted us over to our seats. She's a Star Wars fan and she loved the shirts we wore. I forgot to mention that we were matching outfits he planned out. The movie started, and it was awful. I probably wasn't the target audience for it. At least MatPat cameoed. They took their own turn with their creative liberty, and I, sadly, had anticipated something in the lines of the canonical lore. The thing is, a lot of kids from the original video game's actual fandom have waited for this movie. It sucks that it wasn't catered to them. After years of waiting, even giving it an independent rating as a whole movie in general, it was boring. The best part of the whole movie was when "Five Nights At Freddy's" by The Living Tombstone played during the end credits. But I had fun nonetheless... but for different reasons - reasons that kept Wacky up. Since we were back with Brie and Bokuto, we kind of just followed them around. We went to Decathlon again. I love that place. Whenever we go there, Wacky usually shows off. I love it when he does that. I mean, it works. Midway, I gravitated towards Brie until we had our own little world while our two guys were being guys. I mean, I take my eyes off Wacky for a single second, and he was already inside the trampoline. One day he'll be able to do a backflip. I believe in him. This time around, he tried doing front flips. It's funny. We ditched Brie and Bokuto after a while, and that's when he asked me to be his girlfriend. Well, he didn't actually ask me. He said it in a more commanding way, like "Be my girlfriend" or something like that. Why would I say no? I'm literally in love with him. It was very casual. He told me it just slipped from his mouth. It doesn't matter how I become his girlfriend anyway. Isn't it such a deal that he'll be my boyfriend in return? I actually need to clear that up. Does that make him my boyfriend? We sat at more places so he could rest, but it never really worked. When I got home, I wore the hoodie he gave me immediately. By immediately, I mean after I settled down and did my shower. He gave me a Squishmallow too. And the greatest part about it was that it was similar to one Sirko had. It's literally the red string of fate. I still smell him. I like it when his scent lingers on my skin. I introduced Raccoon (the Squishmallow) to Bird (my first Wacky child). He also gave me Prime and Feastables. He's such a dude. Not that I'm complaining. I'm convinced part of me is a 12-year-old boy that never grew up. Thank you, Wacky. I hope I can be a good girlfriend.

November 10, 2023

I have forgotten something very important. I quickly regained my rusting skill of solving a Rubik's cube. I was successful. I thank my muscle memory. They must've temporarily fallen asleep. I am an hour late to school again. I really am going back to my old ways. We just had a bunch of lessons. I was glued to my phone talking to Wacky because we mostly had free time. It’s a good thing. I physically do not have any ounce of energy left in my body. We were supposed to have 2 presentations for today, but the other was moved. More free time. Even our club was like an hour straight of gossip with our teacher. After school, I gave myself a self-care day. I had a mani-pedi, bought a book, had an everything shower, and that included my very elaborate hair care routine. It's a nice day.

November 09, 2023

Time is relative. To defend my case, while everyone else uses the same frame of reference in their little three-dimensional being speed, I differ. As a god, if a pendulum measures 3 seconds per swing for the normal person, mine is sped up to 5.368 × 10^(-6) seconds, or 5.368 microseconds. That’s 186,282.397 miles per second, meaning my speed is superluminal. With this complication, I have simply adjusted to the time of a normal person. Anyway, I was so close to making it on time. I still had hopes. But those hopes were abruptly shut down when I found out that the car keys are missing. Today isn’t the best of days. The dark reunion came during PE class. Girlhood sucks. I didn’t do much today at school. I was leading the class for a play I wrote about St. Nicholaus, and I wrote some notes on research. The rest of the day was spent sleeping. I walked back to the pick-up spot with Skylar, and he picked up my baby brother with me too. They gave each other high fives! I got home then fell asleep since I had a pretty long day. I have a lot to study too. So many presentations. It’s a good thing I’m a great speaker. My baby brother told me one of his dreams. Yes, I was very attentive. I drew it out for him so I can see his vision. Like his current obsession, the setting is located under the ocean. Inside a house, but the house is a huge container of the ocean. I was with my baby brother in a boat with paddles, and we were approaching a portal made out of candles. Inside was sand and a walking fish and whale shark. I got eaten in the end because I wasn't a fast enough runner to escape. Tragic.

November 08, 2023

People no longer create original thoughts; instead, they prefer to ignore questions than try to find answers. The fear of not knowing is so strong that many people simply refuse to learn. Furthermore, additional elaborations will be formed later when I ponder on this topic more. Cryptomnesia, though common in itself, has reached a point of frequency where it's almost done on purpose. In fact, some completely abandon the pretense of mistakenly believing their thoughts to be original and instead just plain steal other people's ideas. I especially notice this in perpetual scrollers – people who discover basic scientific or philosophical reasonings and flaunt them as if everyone around them is just now figuring out how to peel their first banana. And I get it; we learn at different paces, sometimes at different levels. The most basic question can be formed at a level way higher than I'd ever understand, and I acknowledge that. It's not that I'm underestimating people, but I feel like some of their thoughts are a bit behind, or they're the same recycled crap I've heard a gazillion times. It makes me step back a bit when I see through people too. I'll probably go back to this whole conundrum. Whatever happened to being bored and generating your own original thought? I'm not cleaning my hands; I'm a victim of this too, but only to some extent. Whenever I consume, I always take time to process.
What am I doing with my life? I feel so sorry for myself. I tried bringing up my whole ranking thing to my mom because, I hate to admit it, but I'm desperate for validation. I managed to bring it up, and I am completely brushed off. I know it's easier to ignore things, and I understand they probably have a lot on their minds to even try and give this time. But is it not simple to compliment your daughter who just won a very hard-to-achieve rank? What makes that so complicated? What makes that so hard? I don't get it.I’ve yet to study for my upcoming college entrance exams. I am consciously choosing to hang out with people over my literal future. I need to start straightening my priorities before I regret this. How am I just letting this happen? I am in the Waiting Room Phoebe Bridgers has talked about. Why is nothing going the way I want it to be, and why am I running out of time? I feel very overwhelmed. The only thing I did today was drop my baby brother off at school on the way to my orthodontist appointment. My orthodontist was an hour late, so I had to wait. Waiting means more time left alone to my own devices. When I got back home, I took my daily sustenance and then watched Sirko’s haul vlog. I appreciate that little exchange we have of sharing with each other things that make us happy. We used to have an account on Instagram solely for that, but we haven't used it in a while. I went out again to pick up my baby brother. I got more food on the way. He’s crying again. Still a troublemaker. I got home and passed out.

November 07, 2023

I took my sweet time getting ready. I have 5 minutes left until school starts. We had our awards recognition ceremony for honors today, and as a dean's lister, I already knew I was on top. Sure, I had problems with one of my teachers who gave me a grade that drastically dragged my average down because she "lost" my paper, but everybody knows about the case, and I am well recognized for how smart I am. We had an early lunch as we had to line up first based on rankings, and they had to organize that. I was 3rd, so I was in front of the entirety of my batch. We're 500 all in all. That's putting into account my nerfed grade that made my average go down by probably a point or two. Insane. I could've gotten the valedictorian title. I was so close. Those in the lineup knew it too. We talked about it when we sat down. If you've read my blog for long enough, I study a lot. I study like James Scholz. It wouldn't be surprising to see me ahead of everyone. When the line finally moved, there was literal applause and gasps from the rest of the batch because they saw those on top (me) walk by. It was the first overview of our rankings. We went up the auditorium and sat down on our respective seats. We had a front view. My god complex was well-fed. I mean, I'm actually 5th if we include all strands, but in the rankings, our strand was first, and I was 3rd in our strand. It doesn't really matter. My parents couldn't come. It's okay. Me and my other friend who quite literally didn't have parents were making this joke because whenever he'd see me tear up and I'd stop, he'd tear up, and it's a whole cycle. My other friend's mom wanted to receive the award with me too if only she found out sooner, she said. I'm actually everyone's angel. The thing is, my parents never really cared about my studies, and even though we aren't exactly the type that has the best relationship ever, I was still looking for them. I guess my prefrontal cortex wanted a respondent to receive feedback from. Maybe my limbic system and amygdala were seeking validation as a form of reward for all those nights I've stayed up and lots of weeks I got sick. Whatever it was objectively, I subjectively know that I just want someone to tell me they're proud of me. And Sirko did. I feel bad for her because she couldn't go up the stage and receive her awards since she has already moved. I miss her. She told me she would've walked me up the stage. I mean, what I did is a feat someone should be proud of. Why is no one proud of me? I mean, the applause I received was relatively louder than most, but that's for all those I've probably helped and were my friends. It's such a relief that I chose to be someone nice. Still a shame my parents couldn't come.I got home without anyone even asking about the awarding. They knew. They texted me. They said they won't come. I got home and I called Sirko to tell her some really insane stories I collected from the day. We made a lot of inside jokes. We called until we both fell asleep, instantly too. I woke up and did a bit of self-care. I did my hair, put on a mask, and just added some steps to my daily routine. Around noon, I started writing my blog and updating it because I know how behind I am.

November 06, 2023

Wacky disrupted my peaceful conversation with Morpheus. That's another way of saying he woke me up from my sleep. I forced him to force me, but it was still horrible that he did exactly as I said. I needed more sleep time (I really didn't). We had an assembly today in the auditorium. It's for this field trip the school is planning. It's more on recreational activities, so it should be fun. It was different for each strand. Since I was in business, we had farming. Makes total sense. Literally two extremely related things. We actually had the best, most well-thought-out activity list. I mean, we'd ride carabaos, plant stuff, go on a boat and fish, and others that I couldn't catch since I was already sleeping. Anyway, I gave Ria her gift since I missed her birthday during my Japan trip. It was this My Melody backpack, and it's the best because if you know her, you'd know that she loves the color pink since literally the Mesopotamia. But she also has a particular fondness for My Melody. It's even her phone case! She was showing it off, and it was making my heart so full. I also gave other people some stuff I got during my trip. We didn't really have many lessons; it's that part of our school's weird schedule where every subject is pretty free. I did a few TikTok dances with Skylar. I also talked with his friend, and he had such good comments on my scent. Everyone agrees too. Big compliment. That's about it. When we were about to go home, we detoured from our usual route and got lost. He's been in this school for a very long time, and I've been here for like 6 whole years. Why is this still a problem? Skylar and I ended up on a balcony at some building with the top view of the main gate of our school. In the end, we traced back our steps, then went back to our waiting spot (Sirko's Cornelia Street), so we really just went around the whole school for nothing. We talked about stuff until I got picked up. My baby brother is crying again. I know school will soon get better for him, so I'm not too stressed about it. When I got home, I had a couple of things I needed to study and brush up on. For one, I have a presentation that needs fixing. So I familiarized myself with that. I might just do an impromptu. I had enough time to do my blog, which was great so I was quite productive with Ria.

November 05, 2023

I am well-rested. I was very comfortable in my long sleep, making up for the cry of my body's exhaustion. My flight back is inevitable. My things are already packed, and the only thing left is for us to leave for the airport. We had to say goodbye, and I am now taking into consideration studying in this country. I also experienced that one particular thing that should only happen in movies, where you try to eavesdrop, but then a loud car passes by and muffles the noise. I have yet another story I'll never find out the ending of. We went to the lounge for a bit and finally settled down during boarding. Very random, but I miss the smell of a new silicon 3DS Case from Japan. It's part of my childhood too. When I got home, I unpacked everything I got and cleaned up. I made Sirko a haul vlog because we're just girls who enjoy the little things. Then when I got to rest, I slept and called with Brie and Anthony. I am very sad. Wacky and I had an argument.

November 04, 2023

A late start for my morning. I cleaned up my photo gallery and just took it slow today. I need some robot parts. The place I'm going to, I'm pretty sure has a lot of scraps that could be useful. I am also still on the lookout for a good camcorder. I have no idea why I'm so insanely hyperfixated on that certain camera since literally nobody even uses it anymore, but I am. We went to Akihabara! As a huge anime enthusiast, here are my MAL credentials. I take a huge familiarity with this place, the land of anime (and electronics). I'm literally a nerd. Saying geek is less cooler but probably more appropriate in this context, but I'll just say nerd for the sake of my inner peace and ego. So the plan was that we'd all separate and just meet up in front of the Tamashii Nations store. Simple enough. My brother and I have obviously been waiting for this. We tagged up and went through every single sketchy alleyway. We visited a lot of stores, and he got himself a few figurines. I found the electronic parts I wanted, some cool premade robot makers too, but I was left with the burden of my unfinished projects back at home and didn't buy any of those. I did get myself a huge haul of mangas. We found a bunch of cameras, and they were all surprisingly insanely cheap. My brother and I had our system, and we were just having fun. When our time was almost up, we had to go back. We fought over who made the bags heavier since although I bought books, he also got like a PS5 controller and a lot of relatively big figurines. When we separated our items and asked other people for a weight check, turns out that we bought things that accumulated to just about the same heaviness. We were still waiting for one more person in our group to return, so I left my stuff with my brother and went to a cafe nearby alone. It had a window overlooking where everyone was, so it was perfect. I was at Beck's Coffee Shop near the Akihabara station. They actually had good food. I don't know if that's just my starving stomach talking, but I finished up my sandwich real fast. I got iced coffee too that I sipped within like a few minutes. I am a party member with a full inventory. I have stamina, but I can no longer walk any faster than 0.10 miles per hour. It's a serious concern. So we went back into the train station, and while my mom was buying snacks that she thought were appealing, I was learning Japanese with my other cousin. Instead of going home, we had a bit more time on our hands and decided to go to Ginza Six. The Beverly Hills of Japan, basically. I followed my brother to GU and Uniqlo, and he got himself a couple of pieces. I got myself like one or two. We spent like a decent amount of time wandering around, and near the end, everyone got hungry. We ate at the place we ate at some year ago (not sure if it was last year), and I am now realizing that the food there was very bland. When we finally got back, I tried to check for the camcorder I've been wanting to get, but it was sold out. Life is not in my favor.

November 03, 2023

Woke up early to take the train with my family to Nishi-Tachikawa. We're visiting Showa Kinen Park. The wind has never felt nicer as it storms past my hair. I'm seeking for both the sun and the shade. It's the most perfect weather, and I am perfectly fine. The very few pictures I take can barely capture how absolutely breathtaking the scenery is. Conveniently, it's the fall season, and the trees display various saturations of colors. I wish I had at least a tiny percentage of Sylvia Plath's articulation to describe exactly as I see everything. The first thing I did right before entering the park and getting the tickets was to buy a water bottle from the vending machine. I am a very hydrated person. My baby brother saw the map to the place and wanted to go to Komorebi Village strictly because of the colored blocks he saw on the map. I can't blame him; he's five. Did you know "komorebi" means the sunlight that goes in between the trees, creating the best silhouettes of branches and leaves, not to mention how pretty the light filters through? There really are so few words to describe something exactly as it's perceived. Sure, it's subjective, but I want people to understand. So the main reason we went here was to actually bike around. We did, and it was the best ever. I didn't even experience the slightest tiredness. We took the route with certain arrows. I was originally with my brother, baby brother, and a couple of cousins, but my brother and I have been biking for our entire lives. I learned to bike with one hand when I was like four or five. It's a story for another day. We eventually left everyone behind. Before we did, we didn't notice how one of them literally fell off the hill part and crashed. It was funny. He walked up with his bike, and he had leaves stuck onto him like something out of an animated cartoon. We went around the whole park in the designated biking course and came across this playground. It was so big, and I swear every playground I've seen in Japan has no care for children's safety, but that's meant in a good way. I just know it builds the kids' endurance and strength. It was actually pretty big, with a lot of activities. I wasn't a kid anymore, but my baby brother was. There were a gazillion other kids playing around, and my baby brother joined in with them. I saw this one mud river thing, and my eyes genuinely lit up. It's been my absolute dream to play with a certain texture of mud, and right in front of me is what I've been looking for my whole entire life. It's a mud I saw from this one Sesame Street episode. Every year I'd remember it and look for that specific episode. It's so incredibly comforting. Sadly, I had no extra shirts to change into and couldn't get myself dirty. One day I'll be able to make my very own mud cake with a mud mug beside it on top of a mud table with mud stool chairs. My brother has always made fun of me for that weird mud dream I've always had. But it's a real thing. After that, my brother and I actually separated from everyone and explored around. It was all so pretty, until the forest ate us alive. We've gone around this roundabout a gazillion times but never found our way back. My brother and I were laughing so hard because there were also these two old couples whom we kept passing by. This was not on me though; my brother had been leading the directions, and I always knew it was wrong but was double-guessing. We eventually found our way back, but the people we were supposed to meet up with were no longer there. Luckily, the spot was located at the food area thing. I got an American hotdog. When my parents found us eventually, we ate with them for a bit, and I just stared off into the distance. The sky was very blue, and the clouds were very white. Before our time ended, our cousins toured us around a pretty place we had yet to see. I'm pretty sure we've only explored like 10 percent of the park. I did see the flower garden briefly when I passed by on my bike. We went to this ninja-looking village, and there was also this big lake thing with the prettiest trees surrounding it. It was so clear and reflecting different colors in each of its parts. We also went to the bonsai trees place, and we saw all the different kinds, ages, and sizes. There were more things we saw tied to Japanese culture, but altogether, it was a very refreshing sight and experience. Before we left, I found myself sitting on the sand, shaping a heart with rocks and putting Wacky's initial in the middle. I am seriously in love.
The day has yet to end. We took the train and went straight to Shinjuku. I mean, we had to see Godzilla for my baby brother, right? I did the 3D cat, so that's cool. I had another cute encounter with an old person. My baby brother was throwing a temper tantrum when the old man approached him and did a few tricks to make him laugh. He entertained my baby brother for a bit, and my brother was so confused that it actually stopped his crying. Not long after, when the old man's wife literally grabbed him, told him they had to cross. It was so cute. Before that, we went to yet another arcade. They decided to splurge on the Game Taito Station yet again. I, again, never participated in this because I simply do not have the skill for that. My cousin (favorite one) does though. My brother was really trying for this Majin Buu one, and he did eventually get it, after not even exaggerating, a hundred tries. They did the Kirby one my baby brother has also been itching to get with my cousin's help. It was hard. We had the staff help us a couple of times. Once probably an hour or two passed, we left the store and had about a handful of figurines. The people I was with all had different plans and decided to go on different paths. I knew that this was not a good idea. There's always certain steps that I know must strictly be clarified before doing anything. I knew pieces of information were missing, and this whole "meet us back" thing will not work out. Spoiler alert, I was right. I know I've been leading the way a lot as their sort of navigator, but I think the situation I was just at is officially a new achievement of this whole new level of independence. I can go alone in Shibuya because I know the place, but Shinjuku is a charted, but unfamiliar territory. I'm not usually allowed much independence because of my body frame and how I look like I'm 12. I am 17. Now Shinjuku has a lot of cases of people going missing, but Japan isn't a bad place; I'll manage. Long story short, my parents got lost, and I was looking for them. I did not word that sentence wrong. They genuinely needed my help. I had little to no contact since my sim wasn't exactly registered in Japan. I tried giving them directions, but in the end, they left me to literally find them. I eventually picked themup at the Game Station we were just at, and they won my baby brother this Luigi figurine. Who's the adult now? When we got back to Shibuya, they invited me for karaoke, but I was rejected because I did not look old enough. The man at the desk was genuinely concerned. In the end, I just bought a couple of hair products at the Donki across the street and went home.
I've been getting some news about the war between Palestine and Israel, and I haven't really done much research on it (sue me for the ignorance), but I saw protesters in Shinjuku and decided to deep dive into it. I know it's not anything recent, but it had just resurfaced, and I feel so incredibly bad.

November 02, 2023

It's my mom's birthday!
Do you remember Zhu Zhu Pets? I had the white one growing up. It was the coolest toy I owned. I had this huge obsession with hamsters because of that one Japanese cartoon too. I feel so nostalgic. I had my early morning where I just wore a tank top and some hand warmers. I looked cool, but I quickly caught on to how cold it was. I needed to cover up. Good thing I'm going back to the hotel later. I bought some early Starbucks latte, picked up some food, and checked out this store called Yamada Denki. I'm on the lookout for a new phone case, screen protector, and a camcorder. I got the first two things on my list, but I had no luck with the camcorder. However, this was a multi-story electronic store, and I'll probably return later to explore the floor dedicated to cameras and other digital goods. I still have hope. On the 6th floor, we discovered that they had toys, so we planned on bringing my baby brother there when he wakes up. We went back to the hotel to get the rest of the people we were with, and I got my knit cardigan and ate at our usual spot. Then I led my brother to Yamada Denki again so he could look at the video games section while I looked at the other toys. My baby brother was overwhelmed too when he saw the dinosaur aisle. I just looked at a few of the Star Wars figurines. The ones I wanted weren't on the shelves, sadly. I wish I had bought those robot DIY kits. I do still have my Arduinos, but they're boring, and I don't even know what I can make with them. We met up with my aunts and my favorite cousin again. Since it's my mom's birthday, she's spending it with her closest siblings. We went to the train and located Snack Land. This time, it was my favorite cousin's turn to navigate. I mean, she's literally a local. I slept at every train stop, and I just want to give an honorable mention to the Tokyo Station Hotel. It was so pretty. Even the actual station itself looked like something out of Hogwarts. Or some film I watched a while back. We eventually got to Snack Land, and it had every single show or character store. She also gave me this Gacha keychain that I immediately wore on my backpack. I read a couple of labels for my baby brother in the Ultraman shop, and I've never felt prouder. Since we were literally at Snack Land, we can't miss out on the chance of eating there too. Our groups were separated for those who wanted to eat meat and ramen. I chose Ramen. We ate up quickly since it's common decency and respect in Japan to finish up your food for other people to eat too. Before everything closed down, we took the quick train to Akihabara to complete my dad's Gundam Anniversary collection at Tamashii Nations. It was awesome.

November 01, 2023

My feet hurt. But it doesn't compare to how it felt when I went to Disneyland Adventure with Sirko a couple of months ago. That was different. Whatever discomfort I felt was somehow neutralized by the amount of adrenaline I had. I don't think I can have that kind of fun ever again. But right now, although I can feel my feet slowly getting numb, I can't help but want to continue walking from how calming the environment here makes me feel. I had my morning walk, combini stop, and all that, before reuniting with my family, who are perpetual sleepers (mom excluded because she joined my morning walk and we bought stuff at Daiso - she got like a very concerning amount of Christmas decorations). Today was strictly for Shibuya shopping. I followed them while in my little bubble, mindlessly walking. They'd sometimes consult me for directions, but I'd go straight back into my deep thought right after. I actually fell asleep a lot. Like when they'd go inside a shop, I'd scan the room and locate a chair or a stool, it didn't matter. And I'd doze off. This included all the restaurants we ate at. It was cold, the most perfect temperature ever. We had a short stop and got some soft ice cream. I sat at a bench and ate too slowly that it literally started melting. It tasted so good, though. I swear, ice cream is best when it's cold. We saw this one Metaverse store, and my baby brother wanted to try it out but got rejected. That was a first. He planted resentment towards the metaverse from that time on. He was telling us about his whole revenge plot too; it was funny. We then spent a long time in GiGO. The great thing about Japanese arcades is that they aren't rigged. You just need to be skilled. I did not have skills. Sadly. My brother and my dad both tried their best as I watched. We played a couple of other games like an air hockey-looking game but modified with a glass over the game, 2 knobs to control it, and you're passing around a box thing (I'm mentioning this because I won here a lot). After spending a really long time in GiGO, I left my mark in their post-it scrapbooks and went out to a Gacha store. I got a couple of cute trinkets. Then ate a burger outside. When we got home, I fixed my suitcase, and it was insane. It was filled to the brim and it seemed like I was collecting every hobby ever. That's not exactly wrong; at this point, I feel like I am. Me, my brother, and my dad also stopped by at the combini to buy my mom a cake (atleast it was a make-shift one because there were no cakes to be found). It's her birthday starting this midnight.