March 31, 2024
Happy Easter! The nightlife is no longer for me. I am sleepwalking at the airport. I am incapable of pulling all-nighters or even staying up past my bedtime now. My flight home was scheduled so early that I didn't even get the chance to sleep. I've been traveling to different countries for almost every month now. It's a very privileged thing, and I do recognize that. I think it's awesome, and I am so grateful. I'm a very private person, so catching me anywhere would literally be impossible. I like that I'm all over the place. I like how the only company I really need is myself, and you can put me in any position, metaphorically or literally, and I'd still do so well. The claims I'm making aren't meant to convince anyone or myself, I genuinely just feel so secure with my life right now. And I always have. I lost it for a moment, but now it's back, and I am so sure to never let that go. I sound like a Ted Talk speaker, but I'm literally just a girl writing her observations in her diary. I've been mentioning this too, but I am so well in every aspect of myself. The fact that I am no longer pale says a lot more than it should. I have color in the right places, and looking good makes me feel good, so I'm taking that as a win. To keep me up, I just continued writing my song. I can't wait to play them with whatever instrument I see fit. I wanna buy a vocoder or synthesizer too. When we went to the airport lounge, my brother and I went straight to the massage beds and skipped breakfast completely. Okay, not completely. I snuck in a hashbrown just before leaving. I swear I'm aging. I made friends with this flight captain (I assume because they were addressing him as so). We talked using hand gestures. He noticed that I wasn't strong enough to pull the plane tables and helped me. I usually sit in business class, but this one wasn't the usual push type, and I was so convinced it was just stuck there. Anyway, the flight attendants ended up giving me like 3 whole packs of Oreos as an Easter gift, so that was fun. It was totally out of nowhere too. Luck, I guess. If there's one thing that has not left the back of my mind since the start of my trip, it's that I needed to hit the gym. The addiciton has been so bad recently that I was actually starting to tweak. So the moment I got home, I showered, unpacked everything, started organizing my closet, my gym gear and equipment, my desk, and makeup. I gave myself a bit of a break after I cleaned my room and took another shower. I slept for a solid 4 or more hours. Then I got to working out. I doubled all the reps just to make up for all the days I've lost. I also played this grocery shopping game with my baby brother. A little while after, I showered once more, and had a very slow night doing homework before calling it a day.